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2012-01-29T02:02:00.000-08:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Kerja time CNY T_T

Being an auditor, having that as a profession definitely is no joke. Basically, setiap hari kerja non-stop. Sebelum satu tugas selesai ada lagi datang. It's like there is no end to it. Sebab tu la dah takde masa nak update blog.

However, Im pretty much active in twitter. Kalau nak tahu how stressful my job is, add me la in twitter. Setiap hari I update my stressful level in twitter haha. Anyways, I hope I have the time to update about myself soon. InsyaAllah. Till then!

Twitter link: AimanAriffin

Jalan-Jalan Cari Kerja.

2012-01-07T06:16:00.000-08:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Rambut sudah dipotong. Interview punya pasal

Perghhh..... dah berbulan tak update blog. Semenjak balik daripada Brisbane from Graduation, I've been extremely busy with "job hunting" yela banyak benda kot. So kepada sesiapa yang baru lepas graduate and a lil bit clueless on what to do, here are a few tips for you to take into consideration:

1) Prepare your resume. I'm sure at your Universities/Colleges ada workshop on Resume Writing. They will teach you on how to make it interesting and what not. The template. Photos. Emails. Working experience. yadida yadida. You need to be very specific and detail.

2) Sort out your academic and non-academic certificates, make a few photocopies on them. You might want to send your application to various companies cause you wouldnt know who will take you and who wouldnt. So you have to make a few sets of them.

3) Send your resumes and your academic/non-academic certificates to the company that you are interested working with. You can do this by post or by hand. If you do it by hand it'll be faster and at least you know that it has been delivered. You can also leave it to the reception.

4) Start your online application on the companies' websites. Certain companies are very particular about this. It's always better to have you registered in their system so that they know you are interested working with them.

5) Prepare yourself for the interviews. This is crucial. You need to know about the company in and out. Also you need to think of questions that they might ask you. These questions depends on who your interviewer will be.

If your interview is someone from the Human Resource department (HR) you can expect a lot of general questions such as;

- Why do you choose to work at Y company?

- Where do you see in 5 years time?

- In your university days, tell me one scenario where you work as a team?

the interviewer, especially the HR will look at your results in detail and expect alarming questions regarding on your grads too.

If your interviewer is a manager, snr manager or anyone other than HR, then you may want to expect a lot of technical questions.

It's very important that you prepare your homework well. Check in youtubes. They have examples on how interviews will be like. Most of them won't be helpful as much as you expect but at least it does give you a slight advantage at knowing how it will be like. Spend some time to Google interview questions from the companies that have called you. Sometimes there will be discussions among those who had been interviewed.

Lastly, be calm, take your time, be confident with what you have to offer, be positive and yes, pray. You need spiritual strength as much as mental strength. All the best!

Gaya sebelom interview. Nervous ni sebenarnya lols

Convocation/Graduation

2011-12-11T01:12:00.000-08:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Sebagai seorang pelajar, graduation/convo sebenarnya adalah impian yg harus di tanam di dalam diri sebagai matlamat hidup untuk menjadi seorang manuasia yang lebih bermakna di dunia ini. (not to say without education you can't be a better person, please don't get me wrong)

Looking back at the old days, I used to envy so much on those graduates because truthfully, I find studying overseas are slightly more challenging than studying back at home, Malaysia. Struggling through quizes, assignments, presentations, and exams(competing with other international students); not forgetting those efforts in finding halal food and meat, planning your time well for prayers(tanggungjawab sebagai seorang Muslim), paying for rents and groceries (bayangkan sebelum beli sesuatu barang tu, kalau darabkan dengan tiga, parah sungguh nak membayar) and the list goes on; having all that, graduation was the last thing in my mind. Really.

Alhamdulillah, with HIS will, I recently had mine. Tidak seperti orang lain, I had a quiet one. I celebrated my success only with my family (my sister is an exception since she's currently studying at London, UK) Besides being extremely satisfied with the fact that I managed to make my parents happy, in away, I happen to make myself believe more in me. In terms of capabilities, dedication and managing priorities. Not forgetting confidence as well.

With this degree, lastly I hope it'll act as my passport to achieving whichever goals life will lead me and am definitely ready to pursue. InsyaAllah. Niat aku menulis blog post ni semata-mata hanya untuk berkongsi pengalaman. Not to boast about my achievements or to look down on others. Termasuklah gambar2 dibawah ya ;-)

Titik Permulaan

2011-11-21T15:04:00.000-08:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al rahim,

Alhamdulillah sekian lama menunggu, kini aku rasa sudah tiba masanya bagi aku mengambil satu langkah lagi untuk maju ke hadapan. No. This step I'm taking is not merely an empty one. It's different. This time, honestly It comes from within.

Just like the internet, sometimes we feel like lifes need a refresh button when things dont go our way.

This time I could hear the bells ringing in my heart. Time to go. Time to leave. Time to forget. Time to move forward. Time to let go of the past, live in the present and look at the future with all the positiveness that I can get.

Don't waste your time looking back at what you lost. Move on. Remember, life is not meant to be traveled backwards.

Blog ni, tempat dimana semuanya di ceritakan, di kisahkan, di kongsikan, biarlah ia menjadi titik permulaan perubahan hidup aku. InsyaAllah.

Susah & Senang

2011-11-20T15:25:00.000-08:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Akhirnya dapatla jugak nak update blog. Been busy shopping since I have one more day left before going back Malaysia. Yeap. You heard that right. Nak balik dah on Sunday. Only one word can describe how I feel, HAPPY. Tak sabar dah ni! tapi sianla plak kena tinggalkan kakak duk blajar sini sorang2. It won't bee easy trust me. Been there and done that but It's okay, InsyaAllah she'll gain lotsa healthy and good experience.

Every struggle in your life has shaped you into the person you are today. Be thankful for the hard times, they can only make you stronger.

I honestly think that this is the biggest gift HE is giving her. A time alone for herself. Not to lepak. Not to play around. But time to learn and discover more about herself, in return she could teach the part it went wrong. Time to let go of the past and to live in the present and look at the future with every positivity embroiled in each and every living cell in her body.

When Allah S.W.T test you, it is never to destroy you, When He removes something from your possession, it is only to empty your hands for a better gift from Him.

Dalam setiap resah dan gelisah kau tu, kau perlu sedar bahawa sebenarnya DIA sedang menguji kau.

Dalam setiap perasaan aman kau rasa tu, kau perlu sedar bahawa DIA juga sedang menguji kau.

Always teach yourself to think of HIM in your easy and difficult times. There are certain things that HE will give and there will be certain things that HE will pull back. You need to understand, in every beautiful little things that you have right now merely you are borrowing it from HIM and so HE can take it whenever he wants it back.

Inspirasi

2011-11-14T10:37:00.000-08:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Kadang-kadang aku tertanya-tanya, kenapa seseorang itu ada blog? Then it led to the question what is the purpose of a blog? Some use it as a medium for financial gain (advert semua bagai) some use it as journals, where they write about their everyday routines, their encounters, some event that they want to keep as memories. Some use it sebagai tempat untuk mengadu segala masalah, resah dan gelisah, sakit dan pedih yang tertanam di hati masing-masing. Some use it to gain attention, popularity. No I'm not joking about this group of bloggers. Yes these people sanggup tu visit blog by blog giving the most ridiculous comments or messages. Sometimes those msgs are not even related to the posts that I write. Manusia. haih.

Bagi aku, I write partly to empty my mind and to fill in my heart. Partly I write because I'm inspired and I want to inspire others. Sebenarnya ada segelintir bloggers bagi komen that my writings are emotional and I need to stop because I'm driving people away. I appreciate those kind of comments really but seriously?

Let me make myself clear ya. A blog, for me, is like my zen, my niche, my zone, MINE. So I shall write, post, arrange it as how I want it to be. Kalau kau rasa blog ni sangat vain sebab penuh ngan gambar-gambar aku, then by all means just close it. I don't want to have a judgmental reader like you. Before judging by looks, please read my post then to be fair. Try to understand what I'm writing.

Don't be afraid to show who you really are, because remember, as long as you are happy with yourself, no one elses opinion matters.

Secondly, emotional and deep those are two different words with different meaning. I usually be critical in whatever topic that I write on and I don't expect you to understand but at least have a sense of respect. In life, you need to be critical in everything that you can think of so you can understand better and be better. If you don't then I advise you to start.

Never underestimate the pain of a person, because in all honesty, everyone is struggling. Just some people are better at hiding it than others.

Thirdly, those shoutout box on the right handside of the blog is meant to be a place where a blogger can interact with another blogger. Not to promote your post. Come on, even if you do want to promote, you've gotta do it the right way. Join those blogger groups in facebook or something. If you are a good writer, people, followers will come to you without you asking them to. So just sit back and chilL!

One thing you have to learn in life is that somestimes it's best to just sit down and shut up.

World peace lol! <3

btw kalau korang nak tahu an example of an inspirational writer, click on the link below :-)

Mutiara

Tabahkan Hatimu

2011-11-13T16:47:00.000-08:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

What If's, Insecuries, Worries, those things will always be with you no matter where you run. Tak guna sejauh mana atau sepantas mana kau berlari ia akan sentiasa ada seperti bayang-bayangmu. It's like running on a treadmill. No matter how far or how fast you run you'll still be at the same spot.

In life, when you start comparing your life with other peoples' seeing how fortunate those people are, how better their lifes are than yours, sometimes you just need to give yourself a big fat tight slap on the face. You need to tell yourself that we are living in the era of technology where we are constantly being bombarded by images, videos, messages of endless happiness. As if they are living in a world of Disneyland where smiling does not run dry. But behind those smiles, only He the Almighty knows what is hidden in it. If you like to compare so much then why dont you compare your life with those unfortunate people in Africa?

You shouldn't compare yourself with others, they are more screwed up more than you think.

You must understand that in life, there are certain things that you need to be a man (even though you are a girl) Settle it face to face. Eye to eye. Amano to Amano. You've gotta teach yourself to open your heart to any possibilities. Why fight the nature of truth when accepting it is way easier. It's okay to look back, to remind ourselves of our mistakes, to learn, to teach, so that we won't repeat the same mistake over and over again but there is no reason for you to linger or mourn on it.

We all make mistakes in life.

The Wise will admit and learn.

The Insecure will deny.

The Foolish will repeat.

The Godly will forgive them.

Yes, to be fair, I might not understand what you're going through because probably I've never gone through like what you are going through but trust me, HE is fair. He test everyone in different various kind of ways. We all go through different kind of stress in life. You see the point there? We all are being tested by HIM. If not now, then maybe later in the future. Who knows?

The secret for a better life is to think positive NO MATTER WHAT!!

Dalam hidup ni, semuanya sudah tercatat. termaktub. Semuanya di dalam tangan Tuhan. One thing that I hold on strong in Islam is that, no matter how hard or how much effort you put in obtaining something, but if you still does not succeed, then it is not meant for you. Accept it and move on. Jangan tangisi buat bukan milikmu. That is one of the many beauties of Islam.

Sometimes when you tried all other means of releasing our stress but you just can't shake it off. Why don;t you try turning yourself to HIM. Even if you don't see the point of doing so, at least you have a place to let your heavy painful burden chest out. HE listens.

Prayer is the cure for a lost soul, confused mind, and broken heart.

Beware of the Dua(prayer) of the one who has been wronged and the tears of the one who has been deprived.

Another thing that you can't run away in life is the fact that people bitches about people. You can't run away from people talking about you. Right now some of you(readers) might say that I talk too much or I think I know everything or any other negative comments but then, whenever that happens to me, I always tell myself that life is too short to worry about what people might think or talk about you, do what you want to do and BE HAPPY!

Lastly, whenever those disastrous emotions hit you, tell yourself that there is no point worrying the future when the present itself is still bleak. Bring the thought of what you want into the future. InsyaAllah. You'll find your peace. InsyaAllah.

Let us all pray for a stronger heart to withstand all tests by HIM

Mahu Kembali Bersinar

2011-11-06T15:27:00.000-08:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Since I've been exploring London, there are so many things to write on but the existence of this blog is to empty my mind and fill in my heart. Since my heart demand for attention at the moment, so I'm planning to keep those exciting adventure aside for some other day. Hari ni aku nak melayan hati dan perasaan aku. Biarlah apa orang nak kata. Biarlah orang jemu membaca. Biarlah aku seorang sahaja melepas rasa.

I wonder why is it so hard for me to let go of the past and embrace the future. Bukan tentang rindu. Bukan tentang benci. It's more on hurt actually. Maybe I am addicted to pain and suffering. I long for it because it keeps me away from people. Maybe I am born to handle alone more than I think I can.

I'm tired of this country. Tired of its cold gloomy dark days and nights. I want to shine by the bright sun light again.

Graduation.

2011-11-03T15:16:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

2.11.2011. Totteridge & Whetstone. London. United Kingdom

Received an email from my uni regarding my upcoming graduation ceremony. Alhamdulillah, finally the day I've been waiting for. The day when I make my parents proud of me. After all the nerve-wrecking, heart breaking, mind stressing, tears flowing, all the torturing for 3 years has come to an end.

Others may think I'm making too much of a big deal over this but as for me, bagi aku, seorang yang perlu berusaha lebih keras daripada yang lain untuk mencapai sesuatu, hanya Tuhan sahaja tahu apa aku lalui. Tetapi aku percaya, Tuhan tidak akan memberi sesuatu cabaran atau halangan jika kita tidak mampu mengatasi nya.

11.5.2011 University of Queensland. Brisbane. Australia

- I may not be the best but I finish the race -

Cinta

2011-11-02T16:15:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Bila bicara tentang cinta, aku rasa that's the last thing in my mind right now. Setiap manusia sebenarnya perlu tahu betapa indahnya bercinta dan dicintai. dua hati satu jiwa. A powerful emotion which can bring the best and the worst in someone.

Fall in love Fall out love

Dua perkara penting perlu dilalui oleh setiap manusia, and its important to learn it through experience. Real experience. Betapa perit, sengsara, sakit, pedih. Inilah satu-satunya cara seseorang itu boleh berkembang menjadi lebih matang. It's one of the many ways for you to grow into an adult.

Bagi aku, walaupun sunyi dan sepi sering menemani tetapi aku tahu, you can't surround yourself with people forever. There will be a time where you'll be alone. When that phase of your lonely is over, you'll be so proud of yourself.

Trust me you would. but if you're still in that phase, look at the bright side, appreciate those lonely time for you, yourself, not anyone else. Get to know, learn more about yourself. What you want. Your goals in life. What you see in yourself. You'll be surprise on how helpful those lonely time in shaping and molding your character, mind, body and soul. Berhijrah ke arah kebaikkan.

HE will help those who help themselves. InsyaAllah.

Misi ke London. Part 4

2011-10-31T16:09:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Hello mello! Setelah lama jauh daripada dunia technology. Yes. Since aku takleh guna hp and internet access blom settle lagi kat rumah kakak aku ni, so can't do much at updating myself. Anyhow, Alhamdulillah we're pretty settled already. So I'm back!

Shopping Paradise!

Today, nak citer sikit pasal my shopping experience so far at London. Kalau korang datang London ni, salah satu tempat yang HARUS korang pergi is Bicester Village especially if you're like me. Aku ni jarang beli branded goods and kalau nak beli pun kena beli ngan harga yang affordable la. If you're rich, this post probably be a waste of your time. Please make your way to Pavilion or any classy malls and get yourself any branded items that you prefer.

Anyway, Bicester Village ni is just an hour away from city London and you can get there by bus and train but my family and I, we went there by car. Senang sikit nak duduk brape lama semua. One of the many reasons I like about this place is, ada surau kat tempat ni. Bagus kan? Kalau nak solat senang je. So you can stay as long as you want!

Secondly, tempat ni offer harga branded goods yang amat la murah jika dibandingkan dengan tempat lain. Separuh daripada harga yang asal. It depends la jugak sebab setengah barang tu actually ada defect. Maksudnya adala rosak situ sana sini sikit2. So you gotta choose wisely before you buy. The best time to go there? Tahun lepas aku gi time before Christmas and after Christmas.

Bicester Village. London. Dec 25 2010

Before Christmas semua barang2 situ adala 40-50% discount. Selepas Christmas semua barang situ 50-70% discount. Kalau kau berpenyakit shopaholic seperti aku, oh hooooo~ jadi gila sampai masuk hospital pun boleh agaknya. lol. Imagine the Guccis, Pradas, Burberrys and what not you can get it less than half price. How can you not go crazy? lol.

Bicester Village. London. 25 November 2011

Oh don't forget to claim your VATs ya. Apa tu VAT? Value Added Tax. That means barang2 yang kau beli tu boleh claim balik tax from the government. At the airport bawak semua receipt and segala2nya to the VAT counter and ambik balik duit from tax. Secara ringkasnya sangatlah berbaloi shopping kat sini haha. ok dah banyak berleter kat sini. Till then!

VATs

Misi Ke London part.3

2011-10-24T05:05:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Alhamdulillah. Selamat tiba di London although had to go through MAD INSANE TIGHT airport security, especially the emigration people . Haih. Malas nak burukkan negara orang tetapi memang betullah orang kata,

"Hujan emas di negara orang, Hujan batu di negara sendiri"

If you happen to travel here and there on a vacation. Semuanya indah belaka tetapi jika kau menetap, ada house expenses, car expenses, groceries and what not, kau mungkin pikir lebih daripada 10X kot. I always wonder. Kenapa kita as in Malaysians mengagung-agungkan negara orang bila hidup di negara kita lebih jauh bagus. Perbezaan yang sungguh ketara sekali plan tu. I honestly think these mat salleh look very highly of themselves and they DO LOOK DOWN ON Muslims, especially wanita Islam yang memakai tudung.

Aku berani katakan semua ni sebab aku banyak travel. Bukan nak berlagak ye. Ini pandangan aku setelah aku menghabiskan nearly 2 years at Brisbane Australia studying and I travel to London United Kingdom quite often sebab Abang and Kakak aku belajar kat sini. So aku dapat differentiatela bagaimana mat salleh at Australia and mat salleh at UK ni camne.

But obviously, not all of them are like that. I'm not trying to be stereotype here. I might be wrong. Mungkin hari ini aku encountered with too many rude, snobbish, immoral mat saleh kot. Who knows. Papepun Its only the first day I'm here and I already miss Malaysia.

Lastly, I'm happy to report that I've fallen in love with my sister's house. Rumah dia walaupun kecil tetapi sangatla awesome! I sleep at the attic. YES! Like how you watch it in the TV. But this one more modernla. Tak sempatla nak amik banyak2 gambar. Pictures below are the only ones that i managed to take.

Misi ke London. Part 2

2011-10-21T07:16:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Pffuuuuh! (bunyi hembusan lega yang amat) Okay. Alhamdulillah segala documents, passport, meds dan semua bagai dah di settlekan. Kalau orang Kelantan, kita orang ckp "bereh!" ok dah melalut. I think I was in the verge of dying sorting out the important documents, consent letter, changing money and all that. Yeeee bunyi je mcm keje remeh but then bila semua pun letak kat atas kepala kau. Baru kau tahu haaaaaa.

How I feel at the moment? Penat. Since our weather agak macam maasham je memanjang (as in hujan) I'm down with a very terrible loud flu >_< Loud? Ya loud. Aku ni bila bersin, tak kira la apa orang nak cakap apa, main HACHOOOM je. Begegar satu umah lols. (only at home ya, out side I'm a very malu-malu tersipu-sipu kinda person, nak bersin pun nak taknak ahakkk)

ANYWAYS. Besok flight pagi, 10:05 am to be specific. So gotta wake up at 5.00 am. Pack what is there left to pack then VROOOM we go to KLIA. I hope everything will be fine, especially baggage wise =.=" rasanya confirm kena bayar excess baggage. If I myself have lotsa clothes, don't even think about my mom. She's 10 times worst than me.

ANYHOW. Tolong doa kan perjalanan kami berjalan dengan lancar. Smooth gitu. InsyaAllah. Doa anda amatlah dihargai. Thanx! Till then, see ya folks!

My new friends :-)

Luggage bag, Hand carry bag and Laptop bag

Kenalah pakai baju selesa bila naik flight lama-lama

Misi ke London. Part 1

2011-10-19T06:54:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Okeh. Sudden plan tetiba kena fly ke London, UK on the 22nd of OCT which is THIS SATURDAY! Hadoi, packing semua preparation memang hampeh belom buat.

So early today, I did a lil bit of outfit try out. Nak tau baju mana nak bawak. Yelah. Skang kat sana nak masuk musim sejuk dah and how I HATE WINTER. Paling leceh musim sejuk. Pakai kena tebal2. Bazir tenaga betul. Dahla baggage allowance 25 kg sahaja. Kalau banyak tu lain la plak kan. LOL okay.

Enough of yapping. Here are a few outfits that I'll be bringing from Malaysia to UK.

Outfit #1 Black Bird

Outfit #2 No Name

Outfit #3

Outfit #4 Blue Rush

Outfit #5 Little Zebra

Outfit #6 When Brown rules

Outfit #7 Your Malaysian Army Boy

Outfit #8 Yellow Spongebob!

Sebenarnya ada banyak lagi tapi tak terlarat nak upload semua. So thats all folks! Will update soon.

U.I.A

2011-10-18T00:27:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Me with Acaff

This is an overdue post but what the heck! Ske hati aku la nak tulis apa lol. So recently I've been given the chance to watch a Mock Trial "Checkmate" Theater organised by UIA LAW's students. What is Mock Trial? Well Mock Trial is an annual event organised by students under the aegis of the Law and Society of Ahmad Ibrahim Kulliyyah of Laws (AIKOL) pendek kata budak2 law nye event la ni.

So pwetty ;')

I was extremely excited as I've never been to UIA before. Never. Tak pernah. Ye, saya tak pernah pegi UIA, Gombak sebab jauh dan takde kawan. LOL. Anyhow, my first impression of UIA, Gombak is they are soooooooooo Green. Surrounded by greeneries. Hijau kan warna kegemaran Rasul. I was also mesmerized by the two minarets standing tall by the mosque. I wish they were more minarets. Baru nampak majestic lagi (cakap macam hebat je kan)

The dormitories or they call it as Mahallah, are somewhat acceptably clean lah. I mean, by the look from my eyes macam tu je pandang nampak bersihla. Takdela kotor busuk amat sampai nak muntah semua bagai kan haha. Acaff said the mosque is a beauty if you see it from inside but then tak sempat nak masuk plak sebab time tu pun dah lewat malam.

Anyhow "checkmate" was very original and interesting. With so many various characters playing, they managed to create a mysterious case where the detectives were unable to reveal the truth behind the mystery. It was like watching Sherlock Holmes but a funnier version of it. While watching, I learn so much, I discover so many values hidden. Something that we all ought to learn.

Justice

Law

Negligence

Noble

and so on (padahal malas nak pikir kahkahkah)

Lastly, I'll end this post with a quote written in the "checkmate" handbook.

So, for those who were at the streets, where others looked down with disgust,

For those who were beaten down, even when its unjust,

For those who were poorer, yet still helped the poorer,

Can they be blamed if justice came with terror?

Something for everyone to ponder on. yes?

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2011-10-16T13:35:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

KaPoW! A lil shocking entry since it has been too long I've been quiet (shocking ke?) It's not like I've been away from blogging. No Oh No. I do still read entries written by those bloggers that I follow. Then why I've been not blogging? Cause I don't feel like it. As easy as that. (malas malas malas haha!)

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Come on join me tweet tweet tweet people ;-) see you there! Jangan segan-segan ye. Saya tidak gigit. eh! I don't bite lol -.-'

Dance your pain away

2011-10-10T12:31:00.000-07:00

Free your heart from hatred

Free your mind from worries

Live simply

Give more

Expect less

Untuk mencapai matlamat dalam membebaskan diri daripada kebencian dan kesakitan, aku mengambil diri ke tempat di mana hatiku suka. Suatu tempat di mana aku dapat membiarkan hati kecewa ini melepaskan segala perasaan dukanya secara sihat.

- Dancing -

Port Dickson

2011-10-09T12:30:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Port Dickson (PD) may not be the best beach that you can find in Malaysia but as long as there are sound of waves, touch of the wind on your face, seeing the bright golden sand. Alhamdulillah. I just can't ask for more.

- Soothing -

Best word to describe how I felt. I tilt my head up to the open sky letting the sun shine all over me. Each waves touches me lifts a heavy burden off my chest. At this very moment, the Ocean seems to be my one and only true companion.

Kekadang dalam hidup, kau perlu membawa diri jauh dari kehidupan bandar yang sibuk. Jauh daripada telefon bimbit. Jauh daripada tekanan kerja. Jauh daripada tanggungjawab. Beri masa untuk diri kau. Masa untuk pulih. Masa untuk tabahkan diri. Bila tiba masanya, pulanglah. Kembali pulang untuk meneruskan perjalanan hidup mengabdikan diri kepadaNYA.

There are only one way to happiness. To cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will.

K-POP

2011-10-07T05:04:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Koreans are the second most hard working people in the world. I noticed that Korean pop culture the so called K-POP has been getting so much attention in Malaysian society nowadays. Sejak kewujudan Winter Sonata lagi mereka menghasilkan very good quality of romance series. Ever since then, slowly the existence of girl group or boy group started to flood in youtube the main source where all of us get to watch glimpses of K-POP.

I myself admit that I do follow some of their series, songs, fashion such as SHINee, BEAST, F(x) I find em interesting. They have their own sense of fashion. Music Video mereka pun sangat menarik. They are so good at dancing. I'll give em 10 stars for that. I don't know if any of you notice this, but I slowly began to see that Korean Culture (now) focuses too much on beauty. Sometimes when I watch their reality shows, it scares the hell out of me when some of the girls would literally go berserk when their childhood photos or unmake-up photos of em being shown. Plastic surgery is like a norm in their society. "getting it fixed" is the term they use to describe plastic surgery done on em. Then I found this very interesting documentary film on youtube. Take a few minutes to watch em.

Ada Masa

2011-10-03T13:16:00.000-07:00

Ada masa aku menulis yang aku masih menyintai mu.

Ada masa aku menipu diriku yang aku sudah lupakan mu.

Ada masa aku berasa bersalah kerana menjauhkan diri dari mu.

Ada masa aku tertanya-tanya jika kau masih menyintai ku

Ada masa aku terfikir-fikir jika kau masih mengingati ku.

Ada masa aku termimpi-mimpi kau dekat menghampiri ku.

To realize that what we have are not there anymore. To realize that you walk out the door of our relationship. It hurts. Sakit. Pedih. Kecewa. Sengsara. But, when I heard that its pretty the place where you are, when I see how happy your smile were, if staying away from you makes you happy, then thats the least I could do.

True love comes from True sacrifices.

Let there be no sunlight for me

Let there be no clear sky for me

Let there be no flowers bloom for me

As long as you are happy.

Pack. Unpack. Pack. Unpack. Pack. Unpack. Pack. Unpack.

2011-10-01T09:51:00.000-07:00

15th October Kuala Lumper, Malaysia ----------> London, United Kingdom 3rd December ----------> Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. 7th December ---------> Brisbane, Australia 10th December ----------------> Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia 15th December --------> London, United Kingdom ( ? ) ......... ( ? )

I think that sums up my travelling life till the end of the year 2011. I did a wise decision not to work yet. Kalau dah start keje, ingat senang ke nak dapat cuti banyak2 nak ke situ situ sana sini seperti tajuk lagi Dato' Siti Nurhaliza tu? lol lame I know T_T

Bila duk pikir nak pack. unpack. pack. unpack. Sumpah penat oh. Serious penat oh. Saya penat oh. tengok muka penat seperti di atas (-.-") ok dah start merepek. bye!

Jalan Kembali Ke Arah Cinta

2011-09-27T13:48:00.000-07:00

Eat.Pray.Love

Travel

Satisfy your most basic desire: Eating

Meet random people

People who went through worse terrible pain suffering than you are

People who share their indescribable happiness with you

Filling in that full space of depression in your head with God

Be brave to open your heart.

Then fall in love all over again.

Each one of them play its own major role in finding your ways back into love. Read em carefully. Look into em carefully. See how each of em work accordingly. InsyaAllah, you'll find your way back into love.

-Inspired by Eat.Pray.Love

Berubah

2011-09-25T11:36:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Change. I wonder. I've been wondering. What factor does lead for one to change.

Change into a better person.

Change into a worst person.

Change into a more sensible person.

Change into a more religious person.

Change into a more hypocrite person.

Change because of power.

Change because of fame.

Change because of money.

Who am I to say? You tell me.

Siapa sebenarnya kita untuk menahan seseorang itu daripada berubah? Mengapa kita takut seseorang itu berubah? terutama sekali orang yang kita sayang, cinta.

Humans. It is in our nature to be scared of change. We love to be in our comfort zone. Who doesn't? Paling gerun sekali bila perasaan cinta seseorang itu terhadap kita berubah. Tiupan anging berubah arah. We are scared for the day when our dearest one will leave us for someone else.

When that time comes, don't weep. Tell yourself that He the Almighty wants you to be with someone who deserves you better. Till that day comes, fall inlove with Him instead. InsyaAllah, He will help you heal the pain and suffering that you go through. InsyaAllah.

Entri Sengal

2011-09-18T12:57:00.000-07:00

Masa sekarang 3:51 am. Aku masih takleh tido. Ada konsert kat dalam perut skang ni agaknya. Aduh. Punyala berpusing2 kat atas katil ni masih takleh tido. Nak pikir pasal masalah hidup buat masa skang ni, paling besar pun pasal takleh nak tahan diri daripada shopping benda-benda mengarot (Alhamdulillah) Haih. Ini ke masalah hidup kau Aiman? sengal ke tak sengal.

Nak cakap dramaless tak jugak. Ada je drama cuma ntah. Malaslah. All I think about right now is food and making new friends :-) siapa mahu berkawan dengan saya sila angkat tangan! chettt macam ada je. Sengal! Laparlah. Nak makan apa eh? Malasla nak ke dapur. Astaghfirullah! Stop wasting other ppls time reading this Aiman. k dah bye.

Hunger

2011-09-18T09:57:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Hunger, bukan lapar nak makan tidak. Tu pegi dapur masak sendiri boleh. I hunger for something fresh. Something new. I want to learn something that can make myself a better person. Better in the sense of additional talent or experience. I would really love to start on painting. But the equipment semua tu, I'm sure it'll cost me a bomb. Then I turn to guitar. I'm such a DODO when it comes to it. Sumpah tatau nape bangang sangat. I can't seem to learn anything by myself! I have no talent at all! semua benda pun kena someone ajar. Hopeless betul. That of course will cost me a bomb too :'(

Picked up tennis but then, RM60 perhour coaching at KLGCC -.-" tak mampulah

Talking about cost and expenses, I'm unhappy to report that I'm officially broke. You see, money and I, we don't have good relationship. We tend to go our own separate ways especially when I exchange it for something else. This problem leads me to a solution. GET A FREAKING JOB! Malasla nak kerja. Everything seems to be so unsure, vague, ambiguous. I can't decide now.

New addition to my watch family ;-)

Honestly, I don't really have any concern on this but oh my, my parents can really be such a pusher!! tak habis-habis bising suruh cari kerja and I'm running out of excuses not to find one. YET. Resume pun tak tulis lagi. Only God knows when will I start. At times like this, I wish I have a twin brother. Nak buat pape pun boleh discuss sesama sendiri. AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh mmg sah dah gila ni. kbye.

Exhaustion

2011-09-17T02:32:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Fuuh~ Baru boleh letak kepala relax. Been so busy lately. Supposed to have lunch with bestfriends at Curve then ada open house right after that. Canceled it all because I'm so exhausted. Yesterday's exhaustion is not over yet.

Yesterday, I went to 1utama for a movie, Fright Night. It was just so-so if you ask me. Not too good, not too bad. Then rushed to KLCC for a late dinner at DOME while waiting for my bestfriend Adam for his catwalk. While waiting bumped into his Annaseaskey model friends Ammar and Atrash. I decided to leave when it started to rain. It was an open door so I don't plan on getting soak wet lol (sorry bro!) but I did went to see him and wished him luck not to slip jatuh ke apa time on stage lol.

Then went to Jalan Changkat, KL. Was so surprised to meet a lot of my friends there. Basri, Hana, Haiqal, Nabila, Farhan. Then decided to leave early cause a friend of mine keje the next day. Life in Malaysia is so different from Brisbane. No wonder I nearly died living my days in Brisbane.

Lifes too good to complain about anything. really. (except for the endless kepenatanlah) I'm single. I have no obligation to anyone. I don't need to explain to anyone why I'm busy. why I hardly online. why I ain't replying anyones messages. I have the right to choose whoever I want to meet. who I want to keep. who I want to see. What matters most is no one can ask me to do this or to do that. Ask yourself who you are before asking or demand anything from me. I hate it when I'm being look as a bad person just because I don't give the attention as much as I gave before -.-"

Happy Mappy Birthday!!

2011-09-16T01:36:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Birthday Girl

As some of you might not know (obviously you don't) last night all of us, the bestfriends, had a early celebration birthday dinner for our Baby Saudah a.k.a Edah. lol. It was held at Souled Out, Hartamas and we started pretty late as that day traffic in KL memang cam apa ntah. Not a problem for me sebab duduk kat Damansara kan, dekat je hehe.

Souled Out

The BestFriends

I treated birthday girl like a Princess. Picked her up from her crib at Taman Tun, pastu terus gerak ke Hartamas. For that day je la kan haha. I had sooooo much fun. Gelak sampai sakit perut. I took a moment to watch all my bestfriends yapping to each other. Alhamdulillah. Finally. The day that I've been waiting for so long. Nearly teared but didnt wanna be all emo on such an ah-mazing day would I.

Birthday Girl had to wear Viking Hat lol!

Anyways, wishing my baby birthday girl Edah a Happy Mappy Early Birthday! May Allah S.W.T shower HIS blessing upon you.

I pray that all the flowers in the world will smile on you

I pray that all the sunlight will shine on you

I pray that all the people with kind compassionate heart will bump on you

AMIN

My Small Little Secret

2011-09-15T13:29:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Small Little Secret

When was the last time I posted an emo post? lols. I'm gonna let myself write freely this time. No need to check any grammatical errors, phrasing and what not. Let my fingers do its trick.

At the moment, life seems to be perfect. Too perfect to complain about anything. Maybe on the surface, on the outer side, the part where I want people to see. Yes, some choose what other people to see them as. Most prefer to show fractions of their happy mappiness. They hide their worries, sorrows, issues. Some bombard others with their images of endless joy and everlasting blissful life.

but

Some prefer to be more sincere and somewhat ingenuous honesty with their feelings. Like myself. My blog not only filled with sweet delightful sugary candy, also overflow with mixtures of emotions such as disappointment, heartbroken, mellow, and yadida yadida yadida.

Namun, aku percaya bahawa setiap manusia itu mempunyai hak masing-masing untuk memilih cebisan mana di dalam hidup mereka mahu dikongsikan. We can't share every pieces of our life with anyone. Sometimes you need your own space and place to keep to yourself. Your small little secret. I don't know how many of my friends read my writings. I hope none. Why? Because this place is where I write my small little secret.

Masa

2011-09-13T07:35:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

For the past few days I've been writing so much about - where I go - what I do - who I meet - life at the moment has been moving fast forward without letting me press the pause button for me to even think. Good in the sense of tak payah nak pikir bukan-bukan but somehow I feel somewhat empty. Mungkin diri ini masih tidak reti untuk bersyukur dengan pemberian Ilahi. Maybe I've been alone at Brisbane for too long sampai bila masa diri sendiri rasa sungguh aneh bila dikelilingi oleh orang tersayang.

Met my highschool friends!

Time is free but its priceless.

You can't own it, but you can use it.

You can't keep it, but you can spend it.

Once lost, you can't get it back.

Aiman. Adam. Aiman

Somehow, I believe that no matter how busy, occupied, sesibuk mananya seseorang itu, I need to take one step back and think. Bukan untuk berfikir nak makan apa pasni, atau nak lepak ngan sape pasni. bukan. Tetapi masa untuk melihat diri sendiri, take some time to reflect on yourself, to see what have you done to contribute in your life and your after life.

Bought this top at Zara. The most sexy daring baju I've worn so far. See through lol!

Dream big

Worry little

Work hard

Learn lots

Pray much

Live humbly

Love all

Be strong

Hari Bahagia

2011-09-10T11:39:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

I had a bahagia yet tiring day for the entire weekend (me think) Early this morning, since everybody in e house were busy with their own agendas, I decided to have an uncle-nephew bonding session! Tadaaa~ Naquib is so lucky to have such an awesome uncle like meself. lol. Self-praise Self-motivation okay.

Naquib struggling to wear his socks haha!

Finally got the toy that he wanted -.-"

Anyways, I rang Edah (my bestfriend) up to teman me and my my my to my surprise she was keen to join us for lunch. So we went to 1utama shopping mall ended up buying an aeroplane toy for baby Naquib (macam kat rumah tak cukup mainan kapal terbang kan)

He loves it too :-D

Then we had our lunch at the yummilicious Pizza Milano. I've always love eating there. If you happen to enjoy creamy, pasta, spaghetti, pizza, mostly Italian food, by all means, please make your way there. I promise you, you won't regret it.

Decided to wear white! ;-)

Later after that, I went for my friends wedding Ahmad Rizal & Laila Fasya with my childhood friend Alfian Montella. Itu nama comel dia ye haha. To think about it, I can't recall how I happen to know Fasya. We weren't in the same school, so I assume she's a friend of a friend but I guess we became somewhat closer than we ever thought kot. lol.

Kami berdua masih single & available HAHA

It doesn't matter. What matters most is that I was invited for her wedding! yes! I was happy to be there. On such an auspicious day, to watch two souls being tied as one. Nothing can be better than this proper and blessed ceremony.

With the newly wed :-)

With all sincerity I bless the two of you

to have a strong heart in tolerating

to have a clear heart in trusting

to have a passionate heart in loving

to have a pure heart in believing

each other till the end of time

InsyaAllah Amin.

p/s: Don't you find Naquib and I cute? We wore the same shirt that I bought for us HAHA -.-"

Just & Fair

2011-09-09T07:08:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

All men are not created equally. Some are born smarter, or more beautiful, or with parents of greater status. Some, by contrast, are born weak of body or mind, or with few, or any, talents. All men are different.

Yes, the very existence of man is discriminatory. That's why there is war, conflicts, violence, and unrest. Inequality is not evil. Equality is.

Truth is, those who are born slightly more advantageous than the others, should be humble and use what have been given to them to help those who are in need. While those who thinks they are slightly at a disadvantage should work hard instead of living through pity and mercy.

I assume there is no equality when it comes to individual but do know that God, is Just and Fair. He is the Best of all Judges. He said it Himself, the life that we are in right now is a test. Setiap manusia itu mempunyai ujian masing-masing di dalam hidup mereka.

Therefore, no matter how small or incomplete you see your life as it is now, do know that what matters most is what happens in the After Life. Cherish what you have and see the beauty in every single small little things that you do in life.

Malaysian Hospitality MH

2011-09-06T09:50:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Today, a good friend of mine just had his Graduation Ceremony at MAS Academy Auditorium, Kelana Jaya. Since I'm jobless and friendless (betul oh! tak tipu) I decided to give it a go lah lagipun I roughly know the location where it'll be held.

Mohd Nor Aiman. Ladies he is still single & available ;-)

The moment I entered MAS Academy building I was warmly greeted by the crew themselves. As expected as they should be, they were very friendly, talkative, smiling which brightens up my day. Its true when people say that,

A smile is a language of agreement

A smile is a language of peace

A smile is a language of good looks

A smile is also a good weapon of tranquility

Like any other graduation ceremonies, there were speeches and certificate presentations to the new, young and undying spirit crews. Not forgetting the performances were very enjoyable, its amazing how they can make time for practice when they have to fly one region to another just like what they say, When there is a will, there is a way.

Energetic Performances.

I was pretty much satisfied with the whole event as much as I expect from a 5-star class airline company by SKYTRAX one of only 7 in the world. Watching the stewards and stewardess claiming their certificate one by one made my patience go gugugaga. I can't wait for mine. Long way to go fuh.

Firdaus. Aiman. Oya. Aiman

Anyways, I'm taking this opportunity to wish my good friend Mohd Nor Aiman and his fellow cabin crews a safe journey on air. Make all of us (our nation) proud no matter how high or far you fly to. It'll be an interesting adventure, various passengers that you need to handle and I'm sure you will give your best in whatever situation you'll stuck in. Since I don't believe nor trust in luck, I wish you all the best and may Allah S.W.T shower his blessings and protections upon you in embarking on your career as MAS Stewards and Stewardess. Amin.

Lastly,

It is not about how many things you do for people. but how much love you give to people through the little things you do.

Congratulations Aiman, We are so proud of you :-)

OCD

2011-09-05T03:03:00.000-07:00

As you have seen pictures of my house from my previous post, at least a glimpse of itlah. I think it is safe for me to say that my mom keep em pretty clean and neat. Heard of OCD before? well to those who have not, OCD stands for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Wanna know more about it? Click here. Kalau nak dalam bahasa click sini. I think their explanation suffice kot, to me it is lah.

See how she arrange the pillows! and the carpet pun kena sikat lol!

Anyways, my mom, she has OCD and a severe one. I mean, she can't see messy rooms. She can't see untidy bed. She can't see wet floor in the toilet. Sometimes I feel that my house is like a showroom instead of home. You know, home is like your zen, your niche, a place where you can do whatever you wanna do comfortably. Yet every time when I happen to mess the house she'll be nagging and cleans it up right away. Even a small dot can't hide away from her. At some times I halau her from my room lol. As frustrating as this sound, somehow I think I prefer having a clean house rather than a dirty and dusty one.

What about me?

Tengok warna pengepit pun semua sama bila guna

Warna hanger pun kena sama semua

Since my maid belum balik beraya di Indonesia, I had to do all the house laundry and to my surprise. HOHO. I noticed that I used the same shape and color of hangers and pegs. In my room pun sama -.-" kalau bentuk dan warna berbeza, hati macam tak tenang je. So one thing I can conclude here, OCD runs in the blood as well.

Way Back

2011-09-04T11:59:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim

The pain in my chest. I got my head down in my hands. Pieces of dreams still lingers in my sleep. I kept on telling myself, I'll be fine even though deep down inside it cuts like a knife.

The places

The faces

The memories

Be strong

Hold on

Just let go

Stop taking the blame. Won't let anybody tell me I deserve this. Will lift my head up high. Again I place all the melodies of memories into a box. Add wings on it and let it fly with the hope that this time it'll lost finding its way back to me.

Selamat Hari Raya AIdilfitri

2011-08-28T13:56:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

I'm rushing in writing this post since I'll be leaving soon to Kelantan. It'll be a crazy 8 hours long journey back but it's all worth it. I miss Kelantan too much. So many things to do there, so many people to meet. I really hope the roads are all cleared up today. No massive traffic jam or what not. InsyaAllah.

Anyhow, I'm taking this chance to wish everyone whoever reads my blog, wishing you guys Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin. while to the non-muslims, selamat bercuti ya and I'm sure Kuala Lumpur would be an awesome please to wonder around at this time lol.

To those who are planning to drive your way back, please do drive safely on the roads. If you feel sleepy, don't hesitate to take a break or power nap or just blast on the radio out loud. ok2 gotta wrap this up!

Stay safe, play safe, be safe and drive safe!!

Complete

2011-08-27T12:37:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim,

Sukses! Alhamdulillah surprise birthday celebration for my best friend berjaya. Like any other birthdays, celebration usually are accompanied with birthday cakes and birthday cards but this time it's different. Since semua dah besar panjang lebar, we had a sophisticated adult kinda celebration. It was more like a celebration where we talk about our working life, updates on what we've been currently doing and so on.

I hope she like what I got for her :)

The Accountants, Financial Managers and Auditors.

After dinner/Iftar, I went out to meet my another bestfriend whom just got back from Melbourne, Australia. Dr.Hanis Mazlan. Yahuu! It was good to see her again after SO LONG. My life is finally complete. Now please let me enjoy this perfect complete life moment please. Just let me hold on to it awhile longer.

Dunedin. New Zealand 1.10.2010

Holy Month

2011-08-26T12:55:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim

Pejampelikpejampelik. We are a few days away from Raya dah. Ramadhan month is coming to its end. Time really flies uh? So are you satisfied with your good deeds on this holy month? Are you satisfied with your fasting?

As for me, Alhamdulillah. Tarawikh jarang tinggal unless kalau berbuka puasa dekat luar which happens rarely. Ramadhan this month so far, kinda filled with wonderful memorable moments (will blog about this another day) most importantly, I got to meet my new and old friends. I'm very very very happy.

A friend that I made through blogging :)

FRIENDS

The Architect but Business Man wannabe lol

Fir with Aiman with Aiman lol

I learn to cook and believe it or not, I baked. The other day I baked bread pudding. Apparently it was good! hey, I'm not trying to self-praise here but my friends said it themselves. Besides, self-praise self-motivation okay so nothing wrong with that haha -.-

Bread Pudding

Of course, nothing is perfect right? but you see, a book and a cup of coffee on a rainy day is good enough to make myself content with my life. I think I've learn to see something in every simple or small thing that I do. Alhamdulillah.

So what about you guys? Hows Ramadhan been treating you?

Pre-Raya

2011-08-25T10:24:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim

So here is my little story that I promised you earlier. The main reason why I've been so busy lately is sebenarnya disebabkan maid rumahku sudah pulang ke tanah airnya. So yang menjadi penggantinya siapa lagi kalau bukan diriku sendiri. Iyaaaaa sudah menjadi bibik yaaa. lol.

Basically my daily routine are

basuh baju,

jemur baju,

send baby Naquib to school.

angkat baju yang dah kering.

occasionally will mop and vacuum the floor.

For the past few days, rumah bagaikan di landa Tsunami. Mom got the house painted all white. In and out. Then she bought new carpets for each and every single room in the house not forgetting new curtains too. Yang menjadi mangsanya siapa lagi kan. ME!! carrying this and that. But the best part is when I get to decide which color I want for my room's curtain and carpet. Memang semangat raya habislah. I know raya should be celebrated best in moderation but since last year time raya kat Brisbane bagaikan macam tak beraya langsung dengan ada midterm examnye. Beraya kat library kot. So this year Mom is heading the direction of giving it all out. Everything seems to be new. Especially the houselah. I don't plan on buying any new clothes. Not anytime soon I guess. Wardrobe dah penuh sepenuhnya. Might as well wear what I already have. Mix and match will do the trick. Baju yang beli dulu2 takut sangat nak pakai skang ni I think I'm ready for it. I notice that I've become somewhat bolder in that kinda sense.

Guest Room

Mom's n Dad's room

My fav room for my story book reading

My room :)

So basically this is my raya preparation. What about yours? :)

p/s: Probably when I'm free I'll share with you guys my raya look. InsyaAllah.

Grow

2011-08-23T15:15:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim

I force myself to finally finish writing on this post. It's taking me too long. Way too long. Banyak sangat nak dikongsikan sebenarnya and I've been really busy at home. I'll keep that story for another day. So here is a little story I would love to share.

With HIS permission, I let myself grow. I was invited for an Iftar with Kak Nurul, to me she is an inspirational blogger. She never fails to pull me from reading her well written posts. I love to read her blog! Anyways, So since I'm not that picky when it comes to restaurant (as long as there is a prayer room) I agreed to have our meeting Iftar session at Bens, Bangsar Village. Implementing from what I've been taught by Mom, Rule Number 1: never meet someone older than you with an empty hand so I took the liberty to buy a book for baby Eshan, a 3 year old adorable little boy (correct me if I'm wrong with his age ya Kak Nurul) I love everything about him especially his round innocent eyes and his soft wavy hair. Haih! geram! >_<

Don't you find them adorable? :)

Anyways, I am very thankful to her for letting me be in her circle (I hope), letting me see a glimpse of her interesting yet challenging stories on life. I was very intrigue by her endless care for her son, Eshan. Mak mana tak sayang anak kan? anyhow, I saw so much love in every topic regarding Eshan. I somehow learn that it is definitely not an easy task to be a mother, parents. You need constant vigilance, constant touch, constant use of voice, constant regulation of needs to the second tier. You need to teach virtually everything, from language, manners, discipline, to empathy. Basically everythinglah!

Meeting someone that I've never meet before. A virtual online friend. A mom. A wife. Honestly, I didn't find it odd until my bestfriend got puzzled when I told her about it lol. So how can I say YES in meeting Kak Nurul? Truth is, it was more like my guts telling me to give it a GO. I'm actually glad that I stick to my instinct. Kak Nurul, Eshan, Wawa (Kak Nurul's younger sister), Apek (Wawa's boyfriend) and Eshan. They were amazing wonderful souls. Not even once I felt awkward nor bored (although I know Kak Nurul was pretty worried about it though lol) I'm very sorry if there were a few seconds of silence. I'm so used to not talking too much while eating. It's one of those teaching that Mom used to do. So I hope you don't look at it as those "awkward silence moments" lol

It was so good. I felt as if we were being so civilized and sophisticated. We put our barriers aside and break the walls between us. Rasa seperti berjumpa dengan seorang sahabat lama. Of course, I kept on reminding myself to watch over my manners and be respectful as she is still older than me. ANYHOW it was better than I expected it to be. I never knew this could be an exciting experience lol. So basically, I let myself grow into a more adult and mature person also not forgetting my view on this blogging world. I have so much more to say but those that I left out, you can read it at Kak Nurul's blog. Please give yourself a few minutes to drop by and read her blog. Trust me, you won't be disappointed.

p/s: So whose next in queue? hahaha perasan. X_X

Be good, do good, feel good!

2011-08-17T10:52:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim

I stumbled upon a friend's facebook status "What do we get for treating other people good?" and that person answered "dunno" If you were to ask that question to yourself. How would you answer it?

Just to update my current look for now haha! =.=

As for me, honestly,

Do you need a reason why to treat others nicely?

Do you need something in return if you treat others properly?

be good, do good, feel good! The time is always right to do what is right. Why wait? Why doubt? Why stop?

Mereka kata kita hidup di dalam dunia yang zalim, jadi salahkah if you wanna make this world a better place to live in?

They say that kindness is more important than wisdom, and the recognition of this is the beginning of wisdom.

With my baby Naquib! :D

So try to follow and stick to one of my principles, be good, do good, and feel good!

Gratitude

2011-08-14T10:26:00.000-07:00

Bismillah Al Rahman Al Rahim

I am thankful. I am grateful to HIM for blessing me with amazing beautiful inspirational friends that I stumble upon in this blogging world. As I struggled to survive my days living at Brisbane, Australia. Wonderful insights were given to me by them in which I took as my pillars of strength while I was in despair.

Recently to my surprise I received a parcel containing a book "Mukmin Professional" by a blogger. In the first page, there was a note from Mutiara.

Dear Aiman,

Welcome home! Selamat Mengimarahn Ramadhan.

This is my 'ole-ole Ramadhan' Hope you'll love it!

Jum jadi hamba yg baik!

Moga Allah Redha

-Pearl-

At that moment, I could only whisper Alhamdulillah countless times. I felt so blessed. I realized that although I hardly have any friends at Brisbane Australia but He listened to my prayers and gave me more than I could ever ask for.

It's true when they say, A simple act of kindness brings us healing

To Mutiara and those whose been nothing but kind and terrific to me, I can only duaa and pray that Allah S.W.T shower HIS blessings on you for your compassionate gentle hearts. Amin

Bloom in Tranquility

2011-08-13T13:21:00.000-07:00

I vowed to live true to myself.

I will try not to lose the light shining within me.

InsyaAllah. I'll be able to accept whatever happens.

I shall be a warm light

that will illuminate lonely paths.

Muhammad Ikhlas 6 months old

Respect

2011-08-11T09:44:00.000-07:00

Recently I had an argument with my future brother in law. It started when he asked me what I wanna work as, accountant ke, auditor ke, apa ke. I told him I don't know and I don't wanna think about it yet. I wanna rest first, thats all I care for now.

He went on saying that corporate finance is really good. It is very easy to make money yadida yadida. Honestly, I listen for the sake of listening. Tak interested langsung pun but yela. Me being myself, I always put others before myself. Pastu dia suruh I work with the big four companies of accounting. Sejujurnya, I don't really care if I work in a big firm or a small one, it doesn't really matter as long as I gain experience and I don't see why I need to stress myself up even more.

Then he said I'm premature. Immature. That really did it. He definitely pressed the wrong button.

First of all, as clearly as I can remember, I never ask for your opinion on what I should do or what I should think. Never. So I would prefer you keep your master brilliant suggestion to yourself. Don't trouble yourself getting into my business. Don't tell me how to live my life. It's mine. I decide if you deserve to be in it or not.

Second of all, don't you dare say I'm premature or immature. Our difference probably go by our age only. Besides that, I'm sure there are other things that I'm way ahead of you. I don't need you to lecture me on desire or needs. If you say it's impossible to achieve, then why did someone managed to write about desire and needs in a book? Don't lecture me about money, yes, I won't argue the fact that money is power but money is not everything. There must be more to life.

Thirdly, please please please know that not everybody sees the world like you do. Each of us ada hak masing-masing untuk melihat dunia dari pandangan yang berbeza. If I hold a ball in between us, the pattern of the ball doesnt mean it should be the same as your side even though the ball has the same round shape. Get me? Although we're looking or pointing at the same topic but our views may differ.

As long as those views does not crosses the line of yours then by all means, respect it.

Respect the differences.

Respect uniqueness.

Respect individuality.

Calm. Serenity. Tranquility

2011-08-10T03:56:00.000-07:00

As I sat beside my nephew. Watching him play with his latest obsession on airplane models. I close my eyes, tilt my head up. What is this weird feeling? I used to feel like this all the time but that was a long time ago. Long time ago. With every breath that I took, slowly I exhale, it was light, feathery, buoyant.

Alhamdulillah. Finally I've reached to a point where I want to be. My mind made peace with my heart.

My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive, and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some honor and some style.

Calm. Serenity. Tranquility

p/s: alhamdulillah I've made it. I'll be making my way for graduation :)

Ukur

2011-08-06T12:48:00.000-07:00

When I listen, watch, observe, the kind of life style that my friends are living in. Apart of me feel so envious of them. Ada sesetengah tu ada rupa, pakai apa-apa pun mesti it'll look good on him. Ada tu pandai sangat, blaja jauh-jauh buatkan parents dia bangga amat. Some are so friendly, they can mingle with any random person who walks down the street. Yang paling hebat sekali, adala beberapa antara mereka memiliki segala-galanya. Rupa, budi bahasa, keimanan, harta dan bijak.

Alangkah bestnya kalau kau boleh buat dan memiliki segala-galanya?

When I look at myself, sometimes I don't recognize myself anymore. I don't know who I am.

Baikkah aku?

kuatkah keimananku?

Elokkah perlakuan aku dengan mak ayah? abang kakak?

Pandaikah aku untuk meneruskan perjalanan hidup?

I wish I can measure all of these. Kalaulah semua ni boleh diukur, at least I know where I stand. I know where I need to work hard on or where I'm slacking. Kalau semuanya boleh diukur, I think happiness can be achieved easily.

Happy Me

2011-08-05T08:09:00.000-07:00

Jeremy Quah

This is my best friend Jeremy Quah Wyjin. We've been friends for almost more than 5 years already. We hardly meet ever since after SPM cause I had to stay at Koleh Tuanku Jaafar (Boarding school) and he had to go Terengganu to continue his studies in medicine.

Mamat ni played a major role in shaping my character till today. Dia lah yang banyak mengajar untuk bersyukur and think out from the box. Jadi seorang insan yang lebih berperikemanusiaan (betulkah aku eja ni?) We used to email each other at least once a week no matter where we're at and we still keep that as our tradition. Actually tu je cara kita orang berhubung antara satu sama lain.

So today, kita orang jumpa dekat 1utama. We talked for solid 2 hours. Takleh duk lama-lama sebab I have to balik berbuka with parents. So anyways. It was sooooooo good to see an old friend again. Rindu amat. Inshallah kalau ada rezeki nanti, kalau ada trip to Redang Island. Will definitely pay him a visit :) Till then, take care buddy!

HAPPY ME :D

Unpacking

2011-08-02T13:02:00.000-07:00

Unpacking.

Second thing I hate most after packing. Imagine wardrobe dah penuh dengan baju. Pastu bawak balik semua baju-baju dua tahun dekat Australia. Winter clothes, shoes, jackets, shorts, jeans, you name it!! How to fit everything in? Sigh. I can't have a messy room. I just can't afford to live like this anymore. Told mom about this earlier but typically, she would ignore me whenever I stress on her about my clothes =.=

I love my new addiction. Peldo shoes

I don't want to shift rooms. I really love my room. It's not too big. It's not too small. Sober and nice. And I have my own toilet (bonus point!) Dugaan pertama pada bulan puasa sudah bermula. Wowza, I can be really dramatic eh. Anyhow. Mom please give me a new wardrobe AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!

My precious'

Urgh. urgh. Urgh. stress

No Complain

2011-08-01T00:11:00.000-07:00

I have nothing much to complain about life at the moment. Too soon to say actually. Seminggu pun belum sampai lagi sejak balik dari Brisbane. There are 2 things that I'm not looking forward to, living my life here back at Malaysia

1) Drama

2) Controlling Parents

I believe that my life intertwined tightly between the both of them. It doesn't matter. I love my life here at Malaysia too much. Way too much.What have I been doing? I shall let the pictures do the talking.

Alexis. Gardens.

Swimming

J.Co

Pavillion

With Hafreez Adam

With Ikmal Aliph

Falling in Love

2011-07-29T07:16:00.000-07:00

Love speaks either for the first sight or not at all. A flash of revelation and a flash of response. Like lightning.

Falling in love. Do people these days still fall in love, or is that mechanism obsolete by now?

unnecessary,

quaint,

like steam locomotion?

Out of touch.

Out of date.

Falling in love could have fallen out of fashion and come back again half a dozen times, for all I know.

Creatures of passion. 29.7.2011 The Curve

I'm Home

2011-07-27T07:53:00.000-07:00

Stressing at the Brisbane International Airport counter about baggage allowance. Struggling to get some sleep on the airplane. Grab a limo taxi at KLIA. Step in front of the house gate. Embraced by family. Made a few calls to my bestfriends.

The only person that I will miss most at Brisbane

Before

After

Went to the kitchen. Had quality cooking time with Mom. We cooked nasi kerabu and ayam percik. Brother and Sister came right after. Amazing family dinner. Bestfriends fetched me and we went to mamak. Laughed till I cudnt breath.

I thought to myself. Finally. Finally. Finally. Alhamdulillah. This is where I belong.

I'm home :)

The people that I will miss

A Few More

2011-07-24T09:05:00.000-07:00

A few more hours I can get hugs from my best friends

A few more hours I can taste Mummy's cooking

A few more hours I can see the faces that I miss most

A few more hours I can wear slippers, tshirts, shorts and sunnies

A few more hours I can hold my nephew's hand

A few more hours I can hear Azan from the Mosque

A few more hours I'll be home

last few hours at Brisbane City, Australia

A Letter to a Best Friend

2011-07-20T10:44:00.000-07:00

Dear Bestfriend,

Dipica Nishrint: Graduated with Bachelor of Commerce, Accountany and Finance

Yesterday was one of your biggest days in history of your life, Graduation! Watching you make your way to receive the scroll, hearing your name being mentioned as a University of Queensland graduate in Bachelor of Commerce majoring in Accountancy and Finance made me so proud of you. You made all of us proud. The day when we met again (after so long) in front of Hungry Jacks, Brisbane City. only God knows how happy I was having a companion, a true reliable friend whom I trust the most, never fails to be there for me through thick and thin of my daily miserable life walking beside me.

Do you remember how we first met each other? What a hilarious way of knowing each other but from that unexpected funny thing I found my best friend. We became best friends. The purest pearls among all.

They say a minute to meet a special person, an hour to appreciate them. A day to love them, but an entire life time to forget them.

Of course we had our fare share of misunderstanding, silly fights (like all the time!) merajuk here and there but I'm grateful we went through all of it, because of em, it made our friendship stronger than ever before. They say There are differences between you and your best friend that sometimes will make you fight, but also will make the friendship stronger.

When I came back to Brisbane City. Knowing that you wouldn't be there with me to share the tears and laughter, it was so difficult for me. Being alone. No one to turn to. No one to talk to. While I unpack and go through all the things that I left behind at Brisbane, I found a letter from you.

Dated: 3:30am 10/1/2010. You definitely have no idea that I am returning home.

Those first few lines already put a heavy weight on my heart. Our journeys together from one phase to another, having you supporting me behind my back made me so weak when you are not here anymore. I got so comfortable having you around me. And now when I'm here all alone. I took a big blow on the face. Then I realized how much friendship means to me. They say having a thousand friends isn't a miracle. The miracle is to have a friend who'll stand by you when thousands are against you.

I must have never say this to you before. You are one and only non-muslim friend that I can speak comfortably about religion. You understand so much about Islam as much as I understand about your race and religion Gujarati (I hope I spell this right) We respect each others believes and whenever exam draws near, we remind ourselves to keep on praying to our own Gods. Because of this, you made me realize that there can be peace between each religion and races if we understand and respect each other.

Now whenever we talk. I noticed that it's all about "remember those days?" "dulu-dulu" "ingat lagi tak?" we created abundant sweet and funny memories together :) but I hope we will stop saying that and focus on building a future together as bestfriends. Although you are miles far away from me. Although the only way we can talk or see each other are through webcam and whatsapp (thank god to that!) you are always in my mind, heart and prayers. If God wants to take you away from me, I only wish for one thing in return. A safe and warm journey for you in life. May your friends respect you. Your troubles neglect you. Your family protect you. and negativity not affect you. Amin

The one who appreciate you most;

Aiman Ariffin

Aiman Weasely

2011-07-16T10:14:00.000-07:00

Baca status semua orang situ sana sini semua pun duk sebok bercerita tentang the last episode of Harry Potter. I just did my fare share of watching the movie awhile ago.

In the entire movie I was only intrigue at one part. Watch these following pictures closely.

and now look at this photos shown below

see it? Do you see anything in common? now? anything yet?

LOL. We share the same jacket! While Ron Weasely fight to survive against YOU-KNOW-WHO wearing that jacket. I on the other hand, use it tooo....

ZZZZZzzzz tidur -.-"

Blessed (2 in 1)

2011-07-14T12:01:00.000-07:00

"trust me, I'll never get bored of lepak with a true friend like you. Lepak with you is like a meditation for me, compared to lepak2 wasting time and money. I enjoyed being alone right now. No problem to think about. Would be nicer if you're here though" - Izanee Asyraff via Blackberry Message

Those 3 lines said by a friend made me really happy. Now I understand the feeling of being appreciated and truly valued by a friend. Simple yet filled with contentment.

"It's already July why tak balik lagi? :-(" - Ikmal Aliph vis Twitter

A question from a friend. Ada la jugak orang menanti kepulangan aku selain daripada family tercinta. lol. There were a few of my friends waiting for me to come back home Malaysia. I just can't wait anymore.

Can't find any pics with em. Slamber curi from facebook :)

Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting.

Good friends are like stars. You don't see them but you know they are there.

Mother - Son conversation

2011-07-14T03:40:00.000-07:00

Me: Mummy, I think I have a crush on a Korean girl.
Mummy: huh?
Me: yup. kulit putih, rambut panjang straight, comey keh, mummy suko keh.
Mummy: uish janganla Man. Ramai gadis melayu comey2 kat Malaysia nih. Toksohla Man.
Me: bakpo tokleh nyo?
Mummy: it's not that I say cannot. But it's very difficult kalau pape dosa nanti you tanggung.

Gosh, my mother can be overly serious sometimes. Chillah. It's not like I'm gonna jump into a marriage -.-" straight away. The next thing I know my siblings knew about this. My mom very kepo. Cannot trust her at all.

RINDU part.1

2011-07-13T10:17:00.000-07:00

Forest Lodge. Indooroopilly. Queesland 24.6.2010 Brisbane Australia

housemates

Free

2011-07-11T04:14:00.000-07:00

Here at Brisbane, having no car to move around. I walk. I've been walking around all day long while thinking that I have a problem that makes me unhappy. Thinking that I think wayyyyyyy too much. Ever since I'm alone, I taught myself to hold back my tears and avoid them. But you see, I'm already at a point where I can touch the pain.

5.50am. 11.7.2011.Sun Rise.Brisbane City. Australia

I walk. Laughing at myself. Thinking that you and I would be better off without each other. Yeah. I admit. You are honey sweet and difficult for me to get over. So let my heart do its job at expressing itself. People stare, let them stop and stare.

11.6.2011. Snow. Ice Skating. Brisbane City. Australia

Well now when you are not around anymore, am I finished?

If you are not around then its just too bad

I hope for every flower in the world bloom for you

I hope the sun will always shine bright for you

easy said, I hope you are safe and sound, not alone now

Because, I believe in you

11.6.2010. Snow. Brisbane City. Australia

I may be broken

I may be fragile

I may be pathetic

I may be imperfect

but

I am free.

Now, all I want to do is, to kill nothing but time. Leave nothing but footprints. Take nothing but pictures. Keep nothing but memories. Believe nothing but God.

Reminder

2011-07-10T04:24:00.000-07:00

After reading Aimie's post on "Moving Along" I think I've been reminded.

Never wish to be a perfect man. Simple man with true love can give the feeling of beyond the word perfection.

I bought a new cap :)

I shall remind myself of my principles.

To love without a condition

Talk without intention

Listen without judging

Give without reason

To care without expectation.

Confession

2011-07-09T06:58:00.000-07:00

Confession is like a broom that sweeps away the dirt and leaves the surface cleaner than ever before. A man who has broken from his past feels a different man. He will not feel it a shame to confess his past wrongs, for the simple reason that these wrongs do not touch him at all.

Confession

I came out with theories. I went through breakdown. Remind me, why we decided this was for the best.....

Distance. Yes I know it is a factor. but I stretched as far as I could. Reaching far to get a hold of your hands.

The ocean makes my swelling heart feel so small.

With the sounds it makes you won't hear it if I cry.

I let go. I miss you. I let go.

Perhentian Island, Terengganu, Malaysia

Stradbroke Island, Brisbane, Australia

Adakah Lebih Bahagia?

2011-07-08T12:30:00.000-07:00

Pernahkah kau tertanya-tanya di mana cerita itu berakhir atau bagaimana semuanya bermula?

I do

Pernahkah kau terfikir ada orang lain di dalam diri kau?

I did

Terutama sekali bila tiada sesiapa yang memahami diri kau sendiri

Pernahkah kau ingin hilang di dalam mimpi dan tidak mahu bangun?

I have

Adakah kau akan berasa lebih bahagia jika ada seseorang bersama?

Adakah matahari akan bersinar cerah jika kau memainkan peranan besar?

Adakah kau berasa cukup dengan usaha yang diberi?

Adakah tugas diberi telah dilaksanakan dengan seeloknya?

15.6.2010 Melbourne City. Australia

GLUE

2011-07-07T09:26:00.000-07:00

I wish I can just glue people together.

Why? (oh aku tidak gila)

You see, when you are stuck together, we can talk, face to face, we can play games together. If we don't face each other, nothing can be done or even begin.

Everyone has a present and a past that we are afraid to share. In order to understand each other, people need to speak to each other. Take a little time or initiative to dive into someone before you start judging them. Let your personality clashes with them. Even families can have arguments unless you put it in words.

No one wants to be forever judged on their past. Give the opportunity to know them, otherwise don't stop them while they are moving on.

However, sticking to each other might bring problems instead. Probably end up hating each other lol. Who knows.

But, pretending that you understand someone by not saying anything is even worst.

Before you judge, act.

Before you speak, listen.

Before you hate, love.

Before you write, think.

Before you quit, try

A Better Muslim

2011-07-06T08:47:00.000-07:00

To be truthful. I hated this place. I never liked it. I always prefer to be at Malaysia, the place where I can call home. A place where being lonely will always be a choice, an option. Unlike here, loneliness is a must. Selalu ditemani oleh Sunyi dan Sepi.

6.7.2011 the day I decided to go for sunset hunting

However, ever since I step foot here at Brisbane, I let myself fill in this hole of emptiness with HIS graceful presence. I became closer to HIM. I became somewhat, peaceful and not ashamed of myself when I call myself as a Muslim.

Sunset. 5:25 pm. QUT Bridge. 6.7.2011. Brisbane City. Australia

Every time I go out to eat, I make sure the food that I'm eating is either halal or seafood or vegetarian.

Every time I go out, I make sure to plan my time properly according to prayer time.

Every time I go for Friday prayer, I make sure to I listen Khutbah properly and learn from it as much as I can.

Talking to the Moon.

Those things made me think of Him at all times. Those things changed me into a better Muslim.

Don't go through life, Grow with life

Storiesaboutlife by Adam & Aiman

p/s: by the way, my bestfriend and I created a blog where both of our lessons in life will be shared. If you are interested to read, feel free to click here. May you have a pleasant day ahead.

Without a Word.

2011-07-04T10:12:00.000-07:00

Shouldn't have done it. Should have just ignore it.

Like it wouldn't be seen. Like it couldn't be seen.

Should have run away. should have pretended not to hear.

Like it wouldn't be heard. Like it couldn't be heard.

I shouldn't listen to your love speak

Without a word you made me in love

Without a word you let me embrace love

You made me fill myself with your every breath

City Cat. Brisbane. Australia

But then you ran away.

Without a word love left me.

Without a word love tossed me aside.

Leaving me here not knowing what to say. Leaving my lips with a surprise. Leaving me here all alone with every word I write, let it be filled with passion and emotion that I feel for you. For tonight, without a word, when I close my eyes, let me embrace this excruciating pain and suffering close to me so that I will be reminded of the feeling. Being in love without a word.

Other Side Of The River

2011-07-03T07:46:00.000-07:00

As I felt so useless so pathetic so helpless, I went out to clear up my mind at a park at the other side of the river, Southbank. Where most Brisbaners would spend their precious time for family activities, picnic, lovers cuddling, reading and what not.

I feel so envious of those around me, being so happy without any worries at the back of their head. I open my book to begin continue reading where I stop ages ago. MasyaAllah, I stumbled upon this wonderful quotes.

Why ponder thus the future to foresee,

and jade thy brain to vain perplexity?

Cast off thy care, leave Allah's plans to HIM

He formed them all without consulting thee.

--Omar Khayyam, The Rubaiyat.

HE comforted me. I thank YOU. Alhamdulillah. All I can do now is tawakal and hope for the best from HIM

3.7.2011 Other side of the river

Beraya di Brisbane, Australia

2011-07-02T05:46:00.000-07:00

Talking about puasa, pejampelikpejampelik wah Ramadhan dah semakin hampir. InsyaAllah, dengan izinNYA maybe I can puasa and beraya di tanah air :) :D the thought of nasi kerabu, nasi blauk, ayam percik. ahhhhhh~ bliss.

demo loni tidok supo mulo

Tok berani kawe nok tegor~

I used to sing this dikir barat song ALL THE TIME. My fav of all time! Thinking about puasa and raya here at Brisbane, Australia blergh puts a frown on my face. Last year I stayed quite far from University of Queensland (sembahyang raya dekat University) public transport pulak takde. By the time sampai sana sembahyang raya dah selesai :(

Tunggu bus

Dah selesai :(

The Housemates. St.Lucia, Brisbane, Australia

Lepas tu, pergi library study sebab the following days ada midterm exam :( how sad is that? SAD RIGHT? memang. I told my family not to call me at all sebab takut sedih-sedih nangis plak (ceh nak jaga macho sebenarnya) but my mummy send me cookies. Biskut raya. but eating biskut raya without family and relatives feels so weird and EMPTY.

9.10.2010 University of Queensland Library

Thanx mummy! I love you!

Then I started to learn what it feels like not to have anyone, mom, dad, siblings, relatives. How quiet it'll be.

Love the ones who are in your life and make it amazing.

Love the ones who left your life and make it fantastic.

"Take what HE gives you and say your thanks....."

ni bukan bungai api ye, those are candles for bday cake LOL

9.10.2010 Indooroopilly, Brisbane, Australia

Puasa Musim Sejuk

2011-06-30T09:22:00.000-07:00

Terus terang, sepanjang hidup ini tak pernah sebenarnya berpuasa sunat pada bulan Rejab. Setelah membaca post tentang kebaikkan berpuasa pada bulan ini by a blogger, tergerak hati untuk mendekatkan diri ini kepada DIA. So I decided to give it a go!

(Here are a few pictures of my winter collections)

Winter. Bicester Village, UK

With my Prince :')

Puasa sunat during winter somehow feels so different. Mungkin tak rasa dahaga tapi lapar tu melampau-lampau rasanya. You do know that food is essential to keep yourself warm to fight the cold. but Alhamdulillah. I managed to do it :) masa berbuka kat sini 5:20pm. So takdela teruk sangat :D

Bicara tentang winter, teringat pulak last year's winter (2010) betapa pantasnya masa berlalu.

Sun rise Sun set

Moon rise Moon set

Day and Night

HE created those to remind us, Children of the Book, Sons and Daughters of Adam and Eve,

that the day of our graves

that the day of our deaths

the day of Judgement approaches.

Winter. Brisbane City, Australia

p/s: too many pictures. upload mana yang sempat je :p

Somewhere only We Know

2011-06-28T10:18:00.000-07:00

Somehow this song completely define how I feel right now. Kekadang bila kau cuba untuk betulkan apa yang patut, try to be the bigger person in life and put your pride or ego aside, dengan niat untuk penuhi janji-janji kau sebelom ni,

but it were in vain. semua nya sia-sia

Then I realized, sometimes in life you need to know when to let go and when to hold on fighting for. You need to learn that some things are not meant for you no matter how hard you try. Ianya bukan milikmu.

People say you don't know what you've got till its gone. The truth is you knew what you had, you just thought you'd never lose it.

So can we go somewhere only we know? So why don't we go? why don't we go? . . . . . . . : (

Sempurna

2011-06-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

Ada orang kata hidup aku boleh dikatakan perfect. Ada orang kata hidup aku bagaikan seperti di dalam sebuah cerita. Ada orang kata aku ada segala-galanya.

Another successful breakfast day. Brew, Brisbane City, Australia 27.6.2011

Aku kata, sempurna itu tidak pernah wujud di dalam hidup sesiapa (unless he or she truly understand the ultimate meaning of blessed and content) Percayalah, Tuhan itu Maha Adil. Even if I do not have any financial issues, I am not lacking in love from my parents, siblings or friends, there are some things that makes me incomplete. Everybody will go through the same fare share of, pain or suffering also happiness or joy.

Interior design of the Coffee shop.

Kita semua serupa. Perbezaan antara kita hanyalah bagaimana masing-masing mengawal, berdepan dengan masalah.

Don't be envious of those who have everything, be envious of those who have nothing but still have peace in their heart & living a happy life because success is not about what you have. It is about how you handle what you have.

Its at some alley. celah mana ntah ada coffee shop lol

Some say I am lucky. Some say I should be blessed with what I have.

I say I am not lucky however I admit that I am fortunate for now, but in the future only HE knows what road I will go through. Always remember that HE is always Just and Fair. I don't deny it. Each and everyday I feel blessed. Bersyukur kehadrat Ilahi kerana diberi peluang untuk merasai kehidupan yang telah dikurniakan.

Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you can only spend it once.

University of Queensland 27.6.2011

I learn that my scars are my trophies, my mistakes are my lessons, and my flaws are beautiful, I keep on working on seeing beauty within myself. InsyaAllah, after this you will learn to appreciate with what you have.

Surah Al Fatiha (The Opening)

2011-06-25T09:27:00.000-07:00

If only I could measure my Faith, probably things might be different now. But, if it could truly be measured, I'm sure I'll be doing it not for the sake of HIM.

Kota Damansara Mosque near my house. rindu :')

In my prayers, I recite words. Words from the BOOK(Al-Quran) which I do not know the meaning of it. I believe that when you don't know what you are doing, don't understand what you are saying, the feeling, the tranquility is lacking. It's not strong enough.

Can't remember when and where but somewhere in Malaysia

So recently I decided to google the translation of Surah Al Fatiha (Power of technology these days). After reading it. Honestly, every time when Surah Al-Fatiha comes out from my mouth,

I feel so much closer to HIM.

I feel that I'm speaking to HIM directly.

I feel my voice is being heard by HIM.

When anyone of you is engaged in prayer, he is holding an intimate conversation with his Lord.

Surah Al-Fatiha (The Opening)

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Praise be to Allah, Lord of the Worlds,

The Beneficent, the Merciful,

Owner of the Day of Judgement,

Thee (alone) we worship; Thee (alone) we ask for help,

Guide us on the straight path,

The path of those whom Thou hast favored,

Not (the path) of those who earn Thine anger nor of those who go astray.

(1 : 1 - 7)

Bersyukur

2011-06-24T05:03:00.000-07:00

Ya Allah. Thank you for giving me such a wonderful moment earlier today. I felt myself being content at its fullest. It has been awhile since the last time I had this chance, this opportunity, to feel happy with what I have.

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

YOU are my very own light.

"take what comes to you and give thanks..." (Qur'an 7: 144)

Be grateful and be grateful for the opportunity to be grateful.

Terima Kehidupan Sebagaimana Ia Hadir

2011-06-22T10:36:00.000-07:00

A sad thing is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be & all you can do is to let go. Perasaan sakit itu akan sentiasa bersama kau ke mana sahaja kau pergi. No matter how hard you try to forget it still give a sting to your heart whenever it can. Jangan kau biarkan diri kau rebah rapuh melutut.

Appreciate life even if it gives you the greatest heartache because after the greatest fall, a new you will be formed. Stronger than before. Ada masa di dalam hidup seseorang itu, tidak kira apa kesan akibatnya, kau perlu bangkit dan terus berjalan mencari erti kehidupan ini.

The search of happiness is the main reason of unhappiness. It is a never ending journey with unexpected obstacles to go through. The only short-cut is to accept life the way it comes. InsyaAllah with faith, you'll find happiness in every moment you life.

Janggut. Gaya. Mutu. Keunggulan?

2011-06-19T10:33:00.000-07:00

Okay disebabkan hari ni ada mood kesengalan, so nak blog pasal guys with facial hair (obviously takkan for girls plakkan? -.-" lol) Anyways, semenjak usia dah meningkat setahun dua tahun oiiishhh bykla meningkat ye, tak pernah terfikir nak simpan janggut, jambang, gouty, beard dan nama-nama lain yang korang tahulah.

Famous artist with facial hairs

Well, recently disebabkan oleh exam yang hampir meragut jiwa dan raga diri ini, no, I mean seriously, I nearly died during the exam period okay. It was so difficult I tell you. A few girls cried in the exam hall itself. A dude went to the lecturer and said "FUCK YOU" most students wrote complain emails in the university discussion board on how unfair the paper was. Itu lain kalilah cerita.

The not so famous, me with a bit of janggut

Anyways! oleh sebab itu, ceh alasan sebenarnya malas nak shave huhu. Yela, kalau simpan takut orang cakap I look like a terrorist plak kan. I honestly thought most people especially girls dislike guys keeping their facial hair. For them it looks gross. Surprisingly I received a different feedback. Most of them think that I look more matured and adult. Machola katakan (okeh tolong ignore nada sengal disitu) I've watched Oprah Winfrey show once stating something sounds like "The older you are the sexier you get" (kantoi tgk Oprah Winfrey kan, lol it doesnt matter, its a very interesting show) So, Betul kah? Sebab tu la nak tanya blogger wanita di luar sana. Do you find guys with facial hair sexilicious or just plain gross? haha. WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Perkahwinan

2011-06-18T00:58:00.000-07:00

To hear a guy who fancies wedding must be an odd thing to hear but yes. I really fancy weddings. Watching how happy everyone would be on a such wonderful gifted moment HE bestowed upon us Children of the Book. Who wouldn't want to share it right?

Featuring Dr. Emy Haniza Zuriani

Narrated Abdullah: "We were with the Prophet, p.b.u.h, while we were young and had no wealth whatever.

So Allah's Apostle, p.b.u.h, said, `O young people! Whoever among you can marry, should marry, because it helps him lower his gaze and guard his modesty, and whoever is not able to marry, should fast, as fasting diminishes his sexual power.'"

In the society today, they have forgotten what is the value of marriage. How serious it is. It's not like any other relationship game because once you end it, it's GAME OVER. The scars will remain visible will always be there regardless. Marriage is so complex, only matured adult can handle it. So if you really considering about marriage, please let yourself know what you are getting yourself into. Nothing in this world is sweet and all sugar as you think it is you know.

Hmmm.... bercakap tentang perkahwinan ni, baru sedar sebenarnya I never share my first experience in a wedding ceremony in my family member. I'm just gonna let the pictures do the talking okay. Enjoy :)

Akad Nikah di Damansara Jaya

Wedding Reception di Istana Hotel, Kuala Lumpur 2005

The Royalties were invited as well.

Wedding Cake!

Spot me! haha

The happy family :D

I actually received a few wedding invitations from friends recently. Sebab tula tetiba ada mood nak blog about wedding ni (ahhh terasa tua sekejap) Oh how I wish I could just fly back Malaysia to watch them sit at the pelamin while receiving blessings from their loved ones.

p/s: maybe next time I shall post my brothers wedding pulak :D

Text Message from Daddy

2011-06-16T03:55:00.000-07:00

"Man, Daddy baru lepas solat Maghrib with mom. Daddy just finished reading your sms. Do not worry so much on yday's exam. No matter how difficult d exam, daddy is v proud of ur determination & dedication in ur study 2 prep 4 ur exam. InsyaAllah, Allah SWT lagi bijaksana, pengasih & penyayang kepada umat2nya yg sentiasa berdoa kpd NYA. Take it as a challenge 4 u 2 continue 2 study. Daddy always hv fullest confidence in you. Kami disini sentiasa berdoa untuk kejayaan maman di sana. Just continue to study and prep for next paper."

I teared after reading this text message from my Dad. I must be that pathetic until he had to send this text message to his son. It hurts when I try so hard to make my parents proud but its never enough. It'll never be enough. How long do I have to push my way through? How far do I have to drag myself? When it'll be my turn to do something for myself for a change? Something that I want. Something that I desire. Something that I need. Something that I hunger for.

Winter 2010 London, United Kingdom.

Andai ini yang DIA mahukan untuk aku. Aku redha dengan jalan diberikan olehMU Ya Allah

Appreciated. Understood. Accepted. Noticed.

2011-06-10T07:56:00.000-07:00

Recently, I was surprised by, can be said from a well-known blogger Namee when she posted her blogpost on my request topic regarding number of followers, you-follow-me I-follow-you concept, and anything related to that.

She's pretty, smart and with a good heart. Reasons why guys would die to have her!

Click here if you wanna read it.

I was intrigue by how I felt from the respond that I received from Namee. Here is something that I learn from it and I want to share with whoever reading my blog now ,

Kita semua mempunyai keinginan untuk suara kita didengar, layak diambil perhatian.

Tidak ada seorang antara kita suka akan perasaan diabaikan atau dipandang remeh.

Walaupun kita manusia yang mempunyai banyak persamaan antara satu sama lain, tetapi kita masih mahu dikenali sebagai individu yang berbeza dan unik. Acknowledged as both unique and significant. Mereka kata, cara kau melayan seseorang itu hari ini, mungkin perlakuan baik itu akan datang kembali kepada kau suatu hari nanti. Beginilah cara kita membina, atau memusnahkan masyarakat kita.

Pada saat terakhir, kau harus belajar untuk menerima kenyataan bahawa jika kau tidak mengambil orang lain secara serious, mereka juga tidak akan pandang kau seriously.

So be a better person in life. Be the bigger person in life. You can start now. Sekarang. Menjadi seorang blogger who spreads good deeds through appreciation, understanding, acceptance and respect.

Appreciated. Understood. Accepted. Noticed.

p/s: Namee, you thought me a priceless piece of learning or teaching which plays a huge part of life that I can only gain through experience. I thank you so much :) I hope you will continue inspire other bloggers to be more like yourself.

Btw. I know most people must think I'mafreakkingemotionallyunstable dude who doesnt know how to have fun. So the other day my friends and I went out karoeke and we sang our hearts out. Suara pun dah takde ni. I shall let the pictures and a vid do the talking! wowza!

Kebahagiaan Abadi

2011-06-09T08:16:00.000-07:00

I heard you are doing good.

I heard you are settled.

I heard you make them proud.

I heard you are happy.

I heard you found your glory.

I heard your dreams came true.

I wish nothing but the best for you. I won't deny it. Sakit itu masih ada. Pengampunan itu sukar. Meninggalkan dendam itu payah. But I believe that forgiveness is the only way we recover from an injury somebody inflict upon us. Lepaskanlah, tinggalkanlah, tanamkanlah, perasaan dendam sakit putus cinta pedih kecewa itu jauh dari hati kerana semua itu hanya akan melemahkan diri kau sendiri.

Untuk kau tiada tangisan lagi

Untuk kau matahari akan bersinar terang

Untuk kau semua cinta di dunia

Tetapi sebahagian besar daripada semua ini, doa dan harapan ikhlas itu datang dari diriku sendiri. InsyaAllah with this you will achieve eternal bliss. Kebahagiaan abadi.

Empty Cup. Broken Plate. Dark Sky. Full Rain. Long Good Bye

2011-06-08T08:50:00.000-07:00

Pengajaran

2011-06-07T07:32:00.000-07:00

Membuat kesalahan di dalam hidup tidak semestinya mengerti kau bodoh, tetapi pastikan belajar daripada ia supaya kau menjadi lebih bijak melalui rintangan hidup. Bila kau ampunkan kesalahan seseorang buat keatas kau atau kesalahan diri kau sendiri keatas orang lain, you don't forgive people because you're weak. You forgive them cause you're strong enough to understand that people make mistakes in life.

Hidup ini sentiasa berputar dari atas ke bawah dan dari bawah ia akan naik kembali and it'll go on and on and on sampai berakhirnya riwayat hidup kau. Like it or not, you will have to go through it. Tetapi kau perlu tahu juga bahawa kau tidak akan sentiasa berada di atas dan kau tidak akan sentiasa berada di bawah. When life gets rough on you, just hang in there tight and tell yourself that rainbow awaits after a heavy storm.

Don't let life's storms get you down, learn to dance in the rain, run with the lightning and scream with the thunder.

Temukan diri kau itu dengan sukacita dalam perkara-perkara yang kecil dan melihat keindahan dalam setiap situasi ketika masa sulit. Ingatlah selalu, tiada sakit datang tanpa sebarang tujuan. Jika kau rebah melutut, maybe it is a sign that you need to plead your faith to HIM. InsyaAllah, HE will be there for you in your tide and easy times.

Hidup Berjaya dan Bahagia

2011-06-05T20:03:00.000-07:00

Kadang-kadang bila kau melihat gambaran kebahagiaan orang lain, jika dibandingkan jelas sebenarnya kelihatan kekurangan yang ada pada diri kau sendiri. Perasaan kecewa itu masih kuat menyengat di hati. Sometimes I wonder what, how, it'll turn out if it was the other way round. But trust me,

you gotta hurt in order to know.

Fall in order to grow.

Lose in order to gain.

Because most of life's lessons are learned in pain.

Life moves on, so should you. You don't get the chance to relive yesterday, but you do get the chance to live today like it's your last. Tidak ada sesuatu yang kau miliki sekarang di dunia ini akan kekal selamanya, tetapi kau sentiasa boleh lakukan sesuatu to have them longer. I did. I tried. and I guess my time is up. Jika kau becadang untuk membalas dendam, here is a piece of advice from me, don't waste your time.

The best revenge is living successful, good life, and just being happy.

I start of my day with a good breakfast at this awesome coffee shop with a good friend. Ya Allah, betapa simple dan indahnya hidup ini. Alhamdulillah. I feel so blessed :)

Kemas Bilik

2011-06-05T05:32:00.000-07:00

Bila stress dan dah malas nak study, one of those many ways that you can distress yourself is by cleaning up your room! Some Turkish people say that "Singa itu diketahui hebat atau tidaknya ia, ialah daripada tempat tidurnya" Don't know how true that is but it goes align with the saying of "Bersih itu separuh daripada Iman" So what are you waiting for? Go spend 10 minutes from your 1440 minutes cleaning up your room!

Sempat lagi posing ngan baju lama. baru jumpa! haha

Before and After. Macam takde beza je -.-" haha!

Zam zam alakazam!

Haih, haaaaaa finally I found a nice halal 24hours shop nearby my condo. yezzah! Alhamdulillah. Every night I go there without fail. Aiyo. Tolong jimat duit boleh? takpe2. Jangan kedekut bila bab2 makanan ni. Tak baik :) ceh saje nak sedapkan hati huhahuhahuha

at Margaret St. Brisbane city, 4am in the morning makan Pizza. Mmg sah sengal -.-"

p/s: Mummy should be proud of me!

Rajin Basuh Baju

2011-06-04T04:11:00.000-07:00

Hye, my name is Aiman Ariffin currently living at level 26 provided only 2 elevators sharing with other (GOD KNOWS HOW MANY!) 26 floors residence, thinks that his life is a living hell when one of the elevator broke down. Surviving with only ONE elevator, jumping out from the building seems to be 100X faster (I would if I could!)

Haih. Please fix this ASAP!

Sempat lagi camwhore dlm lif -.-"

Bila masa nak basuh baju palinglah best sekali. cuba bayangkan. Kena turun ke level 4 where all the laundry, kitchen, common area, swimming pool at. Masuk baju dalam washing machine. Naik balik bilik. Pastu turun balik masukkan baju dalam dryer. Naik balik bilik. Pastu turun balik amik baju. Naik balik bilik. okay dah berapa kali cakap naik and turun -.-"

Amir came over to study! yay!

TO THOSE WHO WANTS TO BE FILTHY RICH! INVENT A WASHING MACHINE + DRYER! SO I CAN JUST WASH AND DRY IT AT ONE GO! I ASSURE YOU THAT YOU'LL BE ONE OF THE RICHEST FELLA ON EARTH!

bebel pasal naik turun naik turun haha

I think memang dah ada kan? mesti mahal. haih. malas betol aku ni. This so going to my next years resolution "rajin membasuh baju"

BOLEH!

2011-06-01T06:23:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah, bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi. I'M DONE WITH THE COURSE WORK! No more assignment. No more presentation. No more nerve wrecking moments! tolongla. Dah penat semua tu. Been there. Done that!! Walaupun masih ada sedikit rasa tak puas hati dengan presentation tadi but I tried my best and now I should just tawakal. I should have more faith in HIM :)

agak-agak ada gaya mcm prof tak? lols!

Now when one phase of the work is done, I should move to another. Which is to study my ass-off till I drop. Honestly, I don't even know where I should begin reading. Too many materials, too many slides, too many notes, too many prescribe readings, too many calculations, too many formulas. Somebody please come and give me a few slaps on the face please?

You can literally smell the fear in there!

Haih. ehhhh! bangkit! bangun! boleh! I need to be positive! I need to be optimistic! I've run this far and I should at least end this race! I wonder what it feels like to be at the other end of it. Would it be beautiful? wonderful? ah-mazing? ohsem? it doesnt matter. what matters most is. I WANT IT! AND I CAN!

Black is Classy

Jacket: Zara Man

Shirt: Topman

Jeans: Highway

Shoes: Billie

Beg: Fcuk and Guess

The other day. I went and stay over at a friends place to study and boy! how tiring it is to travel back and forth back and forth! takpe! harap-harap semua ni berbaloi! InsyaAllah!

Graduasi.

2011-05-31T10:22:00.000-07:00

Okay, I think the time has come. I need to calm myself down. I should not let myself charge forth like a mad bull. I can see it. It's right in front of me now. I need to be smart at achieving it. For many of you (many ke? haha) out there pretty much clueless at what I'm talking about, I'm actually talking about my graduation. Right now, 3 major papers are the only obstacles that comes between me and graduation. I can't believe it.

How badly I want it?

Ya Allah, aku mahu kan ini Ya Allah. Hanya dengan ini aku dapat menggembirakan kedua-dua ibu dan bapa. I want to be a good Son. I want them to be proud of me. I will try my best and I hope you will listen to my prayer and make it a dream come true. InsyaAllah.

Gaya Korean

2011-05-29T10:10:00.000-07:00

I got hammered so bad the other day by a bunch of friends. They said I've been emo and when I read all my post back then, holyshityoueffingemotionalfreak! I should receive an award being the most emotional kid ever. Honestly, where did I get all the strength to write down all those depressing stuff. I must be possessed or some sort -.-" agak sengal disitu ye

Annyeong!

Anyways, since I've been hanging out with my Korean friends a lot and got hooked with a pretty Korean girl. mmmmmm too much actually! haha I kinda got influenced a lil by their fashion style. And you know what? I think somehow somewhere someway, I like it! yes, that is the most important thing. Be comfortable with what you wear.

Shirt: Guess

Pants: Zara Man

Scarf: Aldo

Bracelet: Aldo

Hat: Unknown

Fesyen dia orang agak menarik jugakla and senang je sebenarnya. Kebanyakkan dia orang ni suka warna natural, lebih suka match "earthy colors" kat diri sendiri especially warna cokelat. So as long as korang ada brown belt, brown jeans, brown shoes, brown shirt, just mix and match it and WALA! jadilah korean celup haha. pastikan pemakaian tu simple dan juga kemas :D good luck!

Lepaskan

2011-05-28T01:57:00.000-07:00

Mereka kata setiap insan yang datang ke dalam hidup ini membawa sesuatu yang kau harus belajar dan kau pula akan dibimbing kembali kepada mereka untuk membesar, to grow, and you help them in return.

Sometimes no matter how long or hard you've loved someone, they'll never love you back. And somehow you have to be okay with that.

Siapa boleh mengatakan bahawa seseorang itu berubah kearah kebaikkan? Tetapi kerana aku tahu, oleh itu aku berani ungkapkan kau berubah menjadi lebih baik.

Kita mungkin tidak akan bertemu lagi di dalam hidup ini, jadi biarlah aku ungkapkan kata-kata ini sebelum kita di pisahkan selamanya, semua pengajaran yang dipelajari sepanjang hubungan kita, ia akan sentiasa terpahat di hati ini tidak kira bagaimana kesudahan berakhirnya cerita kita

Seperti kapal ditiup oleh angin laut.

Seperti benih dijatuhkan oleh burung.

Forgiveness for the things that I've done you blame me for but I think the both of us know there is blame to share and none seems to be matter anymore.

Lupakan

2011-05-26T09:19:00.000-07:00

Di dalam setiap benda yang aku lakukan, dalam setiap kata yang aku lafazkan. Cinta itu, boleh membuat kau kurang waras, ia tidak pernah memberi kebebasan kepada kau. Ia sangat mudah untuk diingati tetapi lebih baik untuk dilupakan. Dulu aku simpan satu impian, dimana cinta tidak harus jadi begini. Ikatan janji itu bagai sesuci syurga yang murni.

Somethings are better off forgotten. We bury them in places that we really only visit ourselves.

Keinginan untuk bersama.

2011-05-26T06:35:00.000-07:00

Kedudukan kau sebagai manusia itu, adalah untuk bersama-sama. Sama juga untuk mereka yang menghargai masa bersendirian.

It's winter already here

Kau suka bertemu untuk makan dan minum, bersosial, melepak. Kau suka pergi konsert, movie, teater dengan seseorang. Kau percaya pada the principle of numbers. We need to belong.

Memang benar kita sebagai manusia, mempunyai sejarah pentingkan diri sendiri, keegoisan dan keganasan. Tetapi kita mempunyai sejarah lain juga. Sejarah dimana secara umumnya kita baik dengan satu sama lain, kita pentingkan keluarga dan teman-teman, dan kita juga berbaik dengan orang asing.

Keinginan untuk menyesuaikan diri dengan kumpulan yang memberi keselesaan dan hormat, adalah keinginan yang dapat menyelamatkan kita dari menjadi seorang yang egois.

Kita sebagai manusia, seperti haiwan mempunyai kapasiti untuk melukai dan membunuh ahli spesis kita sama sendiri tetapi kita juga seperti haiwan lain dalam keinginan untuk berkumpul bersama. Jadi jika kau inginkan satu kehidupan dipenuhi dengan kasih sayang dan hormat, jadilah seorang yang baik dari hati yang ikhlas. InsyaAllah you'll be happier.

They say that if you want to live in a better place, be the FIRST person to be one.

Luka

2011-05-26T01:40:00.000-07:00

Bagaimana jika aku ungkapkan kata betapa pentingnya kau di dalam hidup aku? Bagaimana jika aku mengatakan bahawa semuanya bererti? Bagaimana jika aku masih boleh menulis namamu kerana kau selalu hadir di dalam benak otakku, di hati aku namamu masih ada. Sejak kau pergi, hari ke hari aku merindui mu

Tetapi aku sedar, masa tidak boleh kembalikan yang telah pergi. Walaupun berat rasa hidup ini, aku harus belajar untuk melepaskan apa yang bukan milikku. Tetapi ternyata kau tidak boleh menjadi milikku selamanya. Jadi aku cuba untuk melepaskan kau. Kau bukan milikku

Jika aku biarkan,

Adakah bekas luka ini akan terus wujud

Sometimes the past is something you just can’t let go of. And sometimes the past is something we’ll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present.

— Grey’s Anatomy

Hak

2011-04-05T06:45:00.000-07:00

Setiap insan mempunyai hak masing-masing. Tidak dikecualikan hak untuk memulakan satu kehidupan yang baru.

Rasanya sudah tiba masanya aku untuk mengambil satu langkah besar kehadapan. Walaupun hati ini masih berat dan masih teringat pada kenang-kenangan dulu, tetapi aku mengambil itu sebagai bukti. Bukit menunjukkan bahawa cinta dulu itu begitu manis dan jujur amatnya. Until hatred losses its fight against it. Sekurang-kurangnya bagi aku itulah yang di rasa.

Suka atau tidak, hidup kita harus berjalan tanpa henti. Mencari erti apa itu kehidupan. Mungkin suatu hari nanti kita akan bertemu lagi. Mungkin tidak. Hanya DIA sahaja tahu.

Simple & Clean

2011-04-04T08:57:00.000-07:00

Malam tadi aku seronok berbicara bersama bulan dan bintang walaupun angin sejuk menemani sekali gigih mendengar. Sebenarnya usaha selama ini mengajar diri untuk berjinak-jinak dengan sunyi dan sepi akhirnya telah mendatangkan hasil. Hari ku bagai kemas dan ringkas.

Got a text message from Sean "Dude, dinner? at 7pm, Little Singapore"

Light conversation on our days

Balik apartment, luangkan masa bermain Chinese Chess sambil mendengar lagu instrumental orchestra dia

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Sambil aku duduk tekun melihat bulan dan bintang, aku sedar mereka senyum membalas pandangan aku. Bisik aku pada diri ini, Wahai manusia, kuatkanlah hatimu merempuh segala dugaan dan bersyukurlah kamu dengan apa yang kau miliki sekarang.