I used to say goodbyes so many times to my friends who studies abroad.
"I wish I can follow study abroad too"
The thought of being away from home was like a golden ticket to my freedom. Imagine that, I can keep my hair long. I can sit outside in the middle of the road at 3 in the morning shirtless with nothing to worry about. No one would call and nag me to come back home. I can sleep over at friends place. How cool is that? It's exactly how I want my life to be.
Not now. Not anymore. Today, I feel that it's taking happiness away from me. Whenever someone talks to me about it, I'll snap at them or I'll change the topic. Yes, I am living in denial. Say what you want. I don't care. Lifes too gooddd now.
What I WANT. What I NEED. It's all here. You said that life is all about making decisions, but how am I suppose to make one when I'm not even given the chance to choose? Even IF I can, I wouldnt be able to pick to stay won't I?
It's all about what you want and think best for me isn't it? How typical. What am I going to do with MY WANTS? What about the things that I can passionately get myself into them?
Life is like a blank page. You can add colours they way how you want it to be because it belongs to you. At the moment, it's bullshit.