STUPID

I want to go back there.

Please let me go to the past.

Things were way happier before.

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I Want

2006





2007

2008

2nd May is coming up,
Every year a week before my birthday, I would go insanely emotional. Don't ask why. Even I don't know what to answer. I still remember three years ago, woof that's quite a while, celebrated my birthday at KTJ. I was so emotional till I cried the whole night right before my birthday. Dahla some friends called me at the time.

Till now, I still wonder what is it that I'm so emo about? Maybe I wanted my close friends, the people that I love, my pillars of strength to celebrate with me and knowing that they won't be there just upsets me. I THINK! What else could i possibly be emo about other than that.

This year, Mummy will be away on my birthday. She's off to Jakarta. Bagusla sangat. Anak nak celebrate bday, Mak lari to Jakarta shopping. Pffft~ Besides that, some of my friends been asking me what am I doing on Saturday. Well, to be honest, I don't have any plans at all. hahaha. Besides have Financial Management class in the morning. Besides that, nothing really.

After being nagged about "my birthday plan", I decided to give myself some time to sit down and think what I actually want for my birthday this year. .... . . . . . . ............................

Finally I've decided to have a meal with all of my friend. Where we will eat. Laugh. Take pictures(uhuh i better look good on that day). Smile. Something that I can take it all in as a memoriable thing in my life 2009. I couldnt agree more ;)

Having friends around me just makes me Happy :)

So What?

I look at you with another person. Walking together. You looked so happy as if you have forgotten me. Good for you. I don't feel sad. I'm not jealous. Why? Cause no matter how many times I look at you, it made me think that, we used to be like that too, we used to smile, laugh, hold hands together, kiss, watch movies together but the only difference is, our time was up. It ended there. So what is there to linger on some more?

No doubt, I'm not going to lie. I do miss you, miss what we had before but we had our moments and now we part on our own ways.

This Dream

This Dream.

I have this silly little dream of mine that I keep to myself all this while afraid to tell anyone cause people might laugh at me about it. Haha . . . but not today! I just feel like writing about it.

O.K before proceeding to read this post It would be really nice if you don't laugh k!

Well, about this dream. It's small. Simple. Silly and easy I think.
O.K2!! I'll get to the point already.

I have this dream to sing while somebody else plays the guitar (since I don't know shit about any musical instrument) The only instrument that I'm good at and only have is my voice. CEHWAH!!

Anyways, I know, I know it is silly but I would really love to do that at least once in my life. hahaha. I don't need audience. Just me and the guitar and not to forget! the camera. L.O.L........ aishhh..... how i wish.....