When you're in the relationship, you get to choose. Who you want to be. The thickhead one, The negative one, The ego one, The difficult one, The caring one.
I chose to be the supportive one. I always believe that I can withstand anything with my ability to think and patience (thank God to that) but as time passes by slowly. I see more flaws in me. I lost confidence in myself at love. It feels like I don't have a heart anymore. I try to bring myself up again but all I could feel was fall.
I wish I can take out my heart with my bare hand and wash it with cold water. Rinse it so it'll be clean from all the misery.
At this moment, I don't think I can do much about it. I cannot do this alone. This is the time when help comes to me. It's just a matter of time before it's too late.