GONE

GONE

The moment I set my eyes on my grandmas house, images of us, my cousins, my childhood friends, playing hide n seek, main seliper tiga, badminton, football, flashes of it running right through me. Terdetik hati ni berbicara "Hmmmm.. I should keep in touch with my childhood friend. Sure am excited to know how he is and what is he doing now" 

Then cousin came over. Update each other with our current life and when I was about to ask regarding our childhood friend, my cousin look at me in the eyes and tell me that he is gone. "Inalillah...." 

When?

Why?

What happened?

"Di buat orang"

Apparently he fought that thing for 3 months and at the end, it took his life away. Why would someone do that? Dengki? Jealousy? How could you?

I always thought that goodbyes are just temporary tapi hakikatnya..mati tu bila-bila masa saja. Kalau Tuhan dah kata, kun fa ya kun….terpisahlah roh dengan jasad kita. 

Dear friend, I'm sorry I could not be there for you when you needed someone. I would have at least try to help. But now ...... you're gone. Right now, I can only pray that you'll be right beside HIM. Al-Fatihah. So many signs. I'm afraid. I know I shouldnt but I cant help it.