Semakin lama masa persinggahan aku di sini, semakin kucar kacir hati dan perasaan aku. Aku bingung. Tidak pernah aku terlepas kuliah walaupun malam-malam gelap gelita aku berjalan seorang diri. Aku katakan lagi, bingung. Bingung kerana aku masih rapuh menggenggam ilmu Advanced Management Costing ini. Bila Prof depan kan soalan, ramai betul pelajar lontarkan pendapat mereka, tak henti-henti. Masing-masing mempertahankan pendapat mereka berdasarkan bukti yang kukuh. Berbeza sungguh. Dulu di Malaysia, semuanya di suapkan. Hanya perlu hafal dan muntahkan balik semuanya dlm peperiksaan.
It's so difficult. Why? Is it because I'm doing something that I'm not fond of? Maybe because I don't check Bloomberg, or check the stock exchange all the time to see any changes in the economic world, I don't analyze the impact on the recent earthquake at Japan how it will effect the world's economy. I never put the effort to at least, keep myself updated with what's happening in this world related to accounting and finance. Does that sums up everything? That I don't have passion for this? That I don't dream like how others dream?
No. I believe that all of us have the same dream. Our dreams are related. The difference between mine and yours is that, I dream to make my parents proud of myself. A dream to make them happy. Dream to put a smile on their faces. Dream to make them for once, to hear them say "I'm proud of you" and the only I can achieve that is, to be a graduate of Bachelor of Commerce, Majoring in Accountancy and Finance. even if I need to forget my own passion.
Inspired by ida ibrahim. I miss reading your writing buddy.