Side Effects

Woke up to the sound of car engines humming, people rushing to their work place, typical morning routine living in city. Is it morning already? Saw a few ray of lights finding away to escape through the blinds. Watching it running freely in the darkness of my bedroom. Strange. Odd. What is this I'm feeling? I close my eyes. I search for an answer but all I could feel was numb. I can seem to pull myself out from bed. My body is resisting, I could feel it but it won't move. I close my eyes again. Search for any strength that I can put up for a fight against this... this... this... pain, sorrow, despair. But I couldnt find it. All I could feel was a gushing of thoughts flying dashing screaming everywhere in my head. I cant control it.

All the possibilities
All the probabilities
All the maybes
All the what ifs

I hold tight to my pillows. Hoping. praying. That it'll stop. Suddenly everything went cold, quiet and empty. Then I open my eyes slowly. Wondering if the nightmare has stop. Truth is, it wasn't a nightmare. So this must be the side effects.

Just let me be with my thoughts for a little while and we'll see where it will go