What If's, Insecuries, Worries, those things will always be with you no matter where you run. Tak guna sejauh mana atau sepantas mana kau berlari ia akan sentiasa ada seperti bayang-bayangmu. It's like running on a treadmill. No matter how far or how fast you run you'll still be at the same spot.
In life, when you start comparing your life with other peoples' seeing how fortunate those people are, how better their lifes are than yours, sometimes you just need to give yourself a big fat tight slap on the face. You need to tell yourself that we are living in the era of technology where we are constantly being bombarded by images, videos, messages of endless happiness. As if they are living in a world of Disneyland where smiling does not run dry. But behind those smiles, only He the Almighty knows what is hidden in it. If you like to compare so much then why dont you compare your life with those unfortunate people in Africa?
You shouldn't compare yourself with others, they are more screwed up more than you think.
You must understand that in life, there are certain things that you need to be a man (even though you are a girl) Settle it face to face. Eye to eye. Amano to Amano. You've gotta teach yourself to open your heart to any possibilities. Why fight the nature of truth when accepting it is way easier. It's okay to look back, to remind ourselves of our mistakes, to learn, to teach, so that we won't repeat the same mistake over and over again but there is no reason for you to linger or mourn on it.
We all make mistakes in life.
The Wise will admit and learn.
The Insecure will deny.
The Foolish will repeat.
The Godly will forgive them.
Yes, to be fair, I might not understand what you're going through because probably I've never gone through like what you are going through but trust me, HE is fair. He test everyone in different various kind of ways. We all go through different kind of stress in life. You see the point there? We all are being tested by HIM. If not now, then maybe later in the future. Who knows?
The secret for a better life is to think positive NO MATTER WHAT!!
Dalam hidup ni, semuanya sudah tercatat. termaktub. Semuanya di dalam tangan Tuhan. One thing that I hold on strong in Islam is that, no matter how hard or how much effort you put in obtaining something, but if you still does not succeed, then it is not meant for you. Accept it and move on. Jangan tangisi buat bukan milikmu. That is one of the many beauties of Islam.
Sometimes when you tried all other means of releasing our stress but you just can't shake it off. Why don;t you try turning yourself to HIM. Even if you don't see the point of doing so, at least you have a place to let your heavy painful burden chest out. HE listens.
Prayer is the cure for a lost soul, confused mind, and broken heart.
Beware of the Dua(prayer) of the one who has been wronged and the tears of the one who has been deprived.
Another thing that you can't run away in life is the fact that people bitches about people. You can't run away from people talking about you. Right now some of you(readers) might say that I talk too much or I think I know everything or any other negative comments but then, whenever that happens to me, I always tell myself that life is too short to worry about what people might think or talk about you, do what you want to do and BE HAPPY!
Lastly, whenever those disastrous emotions hit you, tell yourself that there is no point worrying the future when the present itself is still bleak. Bring the thought of what you want into the future. InsyaAllah. You'll find your peace. InsyaAllah.
Let us all pray for a stronger heart to withstand all tests by HIM