Decide

Secrets can be a bitch sometimes. Especially when you found out that you bestest friend's lover cheated on him. Keeping it to yourself is already hard enough, telling is another thing.

Since I'm effing worried about my bestest friends bad performance in his studies, I decided to come clean with him so that he could just move on and focus in his studies since it should have been above anything else than that. I thought I was doing a good job as a friend but it turned out to be the other way round. I was slammed and assaulted. I tried to listen to his reasoning but I'm sorry, I don't see any sense in any of them. But one point that he made it clear to me was, he said I say things without thinking. As in, I give my opinion without thinking the consequences.

I'll show your options

I don't understand. You see, I believe that I'm a simple kind of person. If any of my friends come up to me seeking advices, simple, I tell them honestly how I feel and what I would do about it. I try to make things as clear as possible for them to see the situation their in and the choices they can take. The thing is my friends, all this while, I NEVER say things like WHAT YOU SHOULD DO, HOW YOU SHOULD HANDLE IT. Never. I simply show them the path that they should consider. What ever choices they make, its up to them cause it's their call. Honestly I don't give a shit if the decision been made is bad or good. Its your choice. Just make your decision and I'll support you all the way. Doesn't matter if I like it or not.

Which road you pick, I'll tag along

So, I'm sorry if my opinions hurts you or your not happy with it cause that's how I feel about it and I'm not gonna run around the bush or lie. Take it, or leave it. It's ALL UP TO YOU! So please, don't come to me and tell me that I'm not understanding or anything like that. It's saddens when I even have to go through this. I mean, do I even need to explain this? Aishhh..............

Killing Me Softly

Theories of personalities

Everybody has their own problems to deal with in life. [FYI life is not that perfect you know] Each crisis has its own uniqueness dramatic level of tension and it depends on how you handle it really. Most people won’t understand how you suffer or what you feel about your problems. No one knows better except for you yourself.

You see, I find it amusing when someone can easily utter the word “suicide” to me. I wonder, is it that simple to kill yourself? Do you know that it is forbidden (haram) to do that in Islam? Do you actually think that taking own life would solve the problem? You're just running away from it. If you kill yourself, what about those people who cares about you? Have you ever thought of that? I guess not.

I think that some people misuse suicide terribly. It’s not funny you know.

Fix it. Ask help if you need it.

There are so many other ways that you could deal with your emotions. Go for a walk. Listen to songs. Shout as loud as you want. Run as far as your leg can take you. Throw stuff as many as you can. Drink as much as you want (although I don’t recommend). Go see counselor. Read books on ways to handle depression. Talk to your bestest friend or talk to any random people. So what? As long as you get it out from your chest!

Don't run away

Done that already? Not working? Why don’t you turn to God as for a change? Take air sembahyang, it helps to tenangkan diri. Read Al-Quran. Pray. INSYAALLAH HE will help.

It's never too late

If it still wont help, then I don’t blame you if you still go for it.

I believe that whatever you go through in life; suicidal should not be an option and will never be. So think before you act. Please. . . . . . . . .

Do remember that life is never perfect, but try to make it as perfect as you can. Try your best.

Dear Friday

I never like having classes on Friday. Too much hassle. Ulang-alik ulang-alik, practically my every Friday plan can be shown below:

From home to College to home to Mosque to home to College

Leceh I tell you very leceh. Dahla this morning taktaula apa jadi, gila jam kot all the way from Kota Damansara to Pusat Bandar Damansara. Then, I was late for class approximately by 30 mins kot (yeah I know, late again. Tell me something newkann) lambat kelas ok lagi but then when I entered the lecture hall, happily sat down comfortably (penatkan lari-lari, I think my entire life I would be chasing after time) my lecturer made fun of me. There were a few construction sites around HELP uni and they were pilling so obviously the ground will shakelakan duk ketuk2. He said something like "Don't worry folks, it's not earth quake, it could be the constructions goin on or probably could be Aiman walked in just now". Whole class laughed at me. Malu dohhhh... Not forgetting the fact that he memorized my name!! Aishhh..... enough of embarrassment for the day already.

but honestly, am I fat? gemok ke saye? why ah? is it the face? it's the belly right? I knew it lah. Gi gym pun tarak guna.

This is the one that I have marooonish

After all that, sampai rumah je I saw a Zara plastic bag on my bed. Bukak2, it's a Zara sweater exactly as the one I bought earlier, only the color is different(grey). Oh and it's from my sis as my birthday present. She sed that if I want something else I can go to MidValley and pick something that I want meself. This was a bonus for melah! I LOIKEEE~ So went there and picked up another Zara pants. Well Aiman, in a month, you bought yourself 3 Zara pants and if you still complain that you're out of pants, pray hard cause I'm gonna slaughter you meself. I love it a lot though hehehehe :) Thanx kak!!

:) Happy Mappy (:

Haishhhhh..... it's already 2.40am now.Saturday.In a few hours time I have to go for replacement class. DAMN IT! I hate it! dahla early in the morning and his doing revision so I rilly2 need to get my ass in the class but I havent do the revision questions yet.....how??? ARGHH!!! 20 Essays and 67 MCQs.... letss seee if I start now the chances of me finishing it would be 0.000

Might as well sleep :D

Just feel like posting this pic, naikkan saham sikit HUAHUAHUA

Forlorn Boy

I used to have this beautiful box where I put it all in then I add wings so it could fly away...

Sometimes It comes back to me and it tell me old tales of my past... It haunts me, it scares me.. it bothers me,...
I don't know what to do with the box. Really I don't

So I just gave it a hug for one last time and let it go...fly away.... since every action has an equal opposite reaction... I reassure myself that when something is set to motion, it can't help itself but to build momentum... so just please go and never come back...

To hope that I won't hear the tales of a forlorn boy ever again.

Stay where I can see you

Recession

I think I have problem at managing my time cause I'm ALWAYS LATE! I was supposed to attend for this conference thinggy on "Financial Crisis" at 10.00am, HELP uni Main Block but I went at 11.00am. Aishhh..... missed the introduction part and the talk by 1 hour, but I managed to catch every bodies attention when I entered the room though :) (suke tol) however sadly, I was under dress tak sempat nak dressy2 sume, pakai sarung je apa yang nampak.

Ok. The whole point of todays blog post definitely not gonna be about me being bad at managing my own time ya. Anyways, moving on.........

Although I don't understand what the hell the speaker was trying to say, but I did get the gist of the storyla ada guna jugak aku pegi huhu. Basically it's about

Recession + stimulus = Stable economy.

Talking about recession, yeah! tell me about it! everytime when I ask for extra money $$$ from Daddy, he would go "recession! recession! recession! need to save money!" so the word "recession" is like a killer to me and I hate it a lot (DIE RECESSION DIE!!). Hahaha I always tell him "but Daddy, I always smell money comes in and smell money goes out bak pepatah best friendku hahaha" nasib tak kena lempang masa tu hihihi.

But then again, cause of recession, the price for branded goods decreases like hell, which is a good thing right??? hehehe :D buttttttttt Malaysia belom lagi merasa recession ni. So the prices sama je, tak turun tak naik, mahal nak mampos. So I suggest you fly somewhere to obtain cheap branded goods :) Maybe in 2 to 3 years time kot baru sampai Malaysia. I dunno. Tak sabar plak recession melanda Malaysia huhuhu. However, I'm pretty surprised that our Gov is still cool with it. Telling white lies about our economy is fine, assuring the people not to panic, make sure to spend money so the economy will keep on flowing, no problem, Malaysia Boleh! Bagus sangatla tu. I want to see how they gonna handle this.

To me, recession is even worse than a terrorist attack. It's coming people!! A number of workers are losing their jobs. Some companies offer their employees to work only 4 days in a week so that they can avoid throwing their workers. Some companies totally SHUT DOWN or declare bankruptcy. Did you know that 40% of the Gov's revenue comes from PETRONAS? Do you know how badly we're dependent on Oil as our main sources of funds? What if the price for oil drops? (although the possibility for it occurring is pretty low but I think we should not look down on it) Aishh........ I think, the Gov should stop pretending being all macho and start thinking on measures to counter this recession as soon as possible because by the time I graduate, tak pasal2 tak dapat keje bila balik Malaysia nanti and I don't plan on working at Aussie.

Note for the Gov: If you already have the idea to handle the problem then START MAKING A MOVE!! before it's too late. Look at what other countries like China, watch the chinese handle the problem. Aishhh stress stress stress stress stresss as for me, I have other things to worry about. WaAyyYy scarrier than recession. Two papers on the 8th and one paper on the 15th. FINALS!

Aiman Study Mode status: ON

Ending

For the past few days, I've been so busy and tensed up in completing my assignment. Day and night at the library. Day till Night. Day till Night. By the time I'm home, I could barely have shower then straight to bed. No time to watch T.V, potpetpotpet with friends, even no time to check my mails. Next day, wake up, straight away go library. And there you go again. I'm telling you, it's sooooooo damn tiring. On the day before the assignment's due (which is on Sunday) my hommies and I decided to finish up our assignment at HELP Hostel since library closed.

Kelly + Me, taking a break by cam whoring lol

Surprisingly I saw quite number of Malays around HELP nowadays even at the hostel. Maybe they are scholarships holder, maybe not. I don't know. Not to be racist okay but I think 90% of the population students in HELP University College are Chinese. In my business department, practically I'm the only malay guy for the intake. So it kind of suckslah in away cause the lecturers tend to remember me especially when it comes to the part when they pick on me to answer their questions or use my name in their examples or questions like, Aiman Co. Aiman Enterprise, Aiman this, Aiman that..... PFFTT!!!! but being the only extraordinary one is cool too. LOLOLZ

Dixon + Billy + Kelly

Anyways, that night we decided to makan at Bangsar Shopping Centre(BSC). I've never been to BSC after the massive renovation. It is still under renovation though. Anyways, at first Dixon wanted to eat at this place called House & Company also known as House + Co. It's a really good place. Very well decorated and extremely artsy. Surprisingly I met one of my close Indonesian friend Sartono! LOLZ. Didn't realize him until he called me out loud. From him I found out that the place is still new and currently providing only for breakfast and lunch. PFFT :( how disappointing right? I don't care! One day I'll go and eat there for real lolz. Btw, If you're interested to work part time, you can consider this place as an option for you to work since they in need of staffs. House + Co, level 3, BSC. if you require more info just ask me aite :)

Sartono doing his thing :)

Moving on, then we went to makan at Alexis. The place can be considered very classyla but I find it really sempit and I hate the chairs. It's sooooooo sophisticated hahaha. I guess I don't go along with techno stuff. Ordered fish and chips. Well, I find it biasa je. Nothing so special about it except for the price. I think most of the food are overly priced. Well, I don't know. Maybe if your eat cakes there would be more satisfactory. KOT. hahaha. I don't know.

Me + Kelly at Alexis while the boys went smoking

After that, went back to HELP hostel. Continue until 11.30pm. Since I'm such a lazy bumbum, so lazy to drive, I asked Amir to pick me from home :) (thanx Amir) then in the car otw back home, we talked about various shit serious stuff. I mean serious stuff like our future, our goals, our wants and needs. Talking to Amir made me realize that theres so much things to think about and you just don't know what will happen. It's too vague..... sighhhh....... I worry too much.

Meet Amir, the health freak

On the day itself, 18th May 2009. I was sooo stressed up. Seriously. I nearly gave up. Banyak lagi benda nak kena buat with so little time. Whatever it takes I still need to send the assignment before 5.00pm sharp. By the time 4.45pm I was still writing. Lari to the photostat shop to print out the front cover, bibliography, spreadsheet. Lari, lari, lari, pastu hantar. nasib sempat Alhamdulillah.

Sumpah time ni stress nak mampos



I did'nt even realize my friend took this picture. I like it though :p

Oh btw, I had a haircut. I cannot stand my hair being all fluffy puffy so I had it volume.

lolz nothing different right?

After passing up the assignment, instead of going home I went to visit the twins at their Pelangi Condo. I sure miss them a lot. I helped them spring clean their house and after that we had dinner at Al-Safa.

Oh Syafiq will be moving in with them nxt month :)

The Desire

I think it's about time for me to end all this and get my fat arse on a holiday trip. I'm kind of tired living in my own life I'm having right now. Why can't I have my life like a book that I can add colors in it? Why can't I have it like how I want it to be?

End It

So I gave up trying. I let it walk by itself. Make their own ways and I shall go to where it wants to take me to.

I'm done with getting hurt, undying false hopes. So I'm going to put it all together in a piece of paper, crumple it, throw it, take another piece of paper, start drawing colorful pictures in it.

The desire to start a new life.

The ups and The downs

Finally I'm done with my FIN 202 assignment 2 !! Honestly I think this is the worst assignment I ever prepare in my entire life. Gila stress kot buat assignment ni. I googled the word "credit risk", open wikipedia, the free encyclopedia (my bestfriend when it comes to assignment), read, copy, paste and the most stressing part ever is when I have to think on how to change the whole sentence into my own words without changing the meaning. I stare... staree... stresss.. stress.. hmmm.... welll.... okk....well...................I..............think there's nothing much to change.............................................................................. WAKE UP AIMAN! isn't that plagiarism??? Bila dah frust and takleh fikir da, the first person I would call is Dipica. I call her, "potpetpotpetpotpet tiredla, I don't know how to do, potpetpotpetpotpetpotpet, okla I continue dola." bila da puas complain, I sit infront of my laptop again. Stresssssssss balikkkkkkkkk. At the end of the day, copy paste je. Syukur Alhamdulillah dah habis and hantar already. fuuh~

A good rest finally

Random Facts about Aiman: I don't know about you but do you sing and dance while driving + listening to the music? I do. hahaha. At this one time, near the curve. Standardlakan on the way to Kota Damansara jam nak mampos. I hate it there. Anyways, as usual me being myself, grooving to the music macam tak ingat dunia dance dance dance goyang sana sini without noticing there were a whole bunch of chinese guys in the car next to mine. Sedar2 sume dok pandang aku kot! but the coolest part is when the driver gave me two thumbs up. HAHAHAHAhahahahahahaahah.... Den I gave the peace sign terus ciou hahahahahaha.
(senang je nak buat Aiman happy)

Camwhoring is a MUST DO when u're stuck in a traffic

Sometimes I wonder, when am I gonna drop all this crap and pursue on my destiny to be a versatile singer. HAHAHAHAHA. Shaddap! everyone can sing ok! It's just I feel that my heart and soul belongs to music. I mean think about it, I can't play any musical instrument but I believe that my one and only musical instrument is my voice. ................................................................
Ignore that. I'm just being stupid. Hahahahah

Kempunan nak karoeke dowh~

Baru je look at myself at the mirror, I don't think I'm fat. Aliph said that I have a skinny body with a fat face. Babi giler kan? Naah it's okay, I bet he is dying at UITM Melaka now. hahahahahaha. The latest thing I heard about him is, he wants to go home. HAhhaahhahaa.
Hope his ok there though.

Sedarlah

I have friends that drinks, do drugs, party. Not gonna say bad things about them cause I don't consider myself as a good Muslim either although I don't drink, I don't do drugs, but I party though! :D Honestly, I don't care what you wanna do cause that's between you and Allah S.W.T but when you come and tell me that you don't believe in Islam and lost your faith already, then that's a big issue. "WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!?!" Buatla apa nak buat but never NEVER never say that you've lost your faith.

Fafa, Aiman, Amir, Nini


Miri Babey!

I'm Sorry

I understand that there are some problems and I am not too blind to know all the pain you kept inside you even though you might not show. If I can apologize for being wrong then it’s just a shame on me I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me.

Into each life there comes a time when you must pay your lovers' dues. I know I was wrong for treating you the way I did but I have so much on my mind. I didn’t know where you fit in and I thought I already said that to you. If I could do it all over again, I’ll never let you get your ways, I'll never let you move into me.

I’m sorry that I ever did it to you, that I ever made you cry.

Lastly, I'm sorry that I can't break down in tears.

HOME ALONE

Mummy and Abang balik kampung for the weekend and Daddy hardly stays at home cause he is busy with his work and so I have the house all to meself :D tee hee~

Well, being alone at home means practically I can do whatever I want right? and It's so peaceful! I don't need to hear Mummy nags all the time about how messy my room is (it's a room mom, you're suppose to mess it up and do whatever you like. Yeah, I know it's good to keep it clean but not ALL THE TIME) Not forgetting how annoying Abang can be especially when his having his mood swings. Just hearing his voice already annoys me to the max.

Kakak, Daddy, Kak Id (soon to be sister in-law) Mummy and Me during Abang's engagement day

I know I talk a lot. Not just a lot, I mean really a lot but again theres this part of me that loves peace and solitude :) and so I thought I could get all that this weekend ,...... but yeah, expect the unexpected.

Daddy is being wayyyyy clinggy than he used to be. He can't even feed for himself. He can call me from home and suh beli nasi. Me being far away from home at college with assignments that I need to settle, can say bz la kan lol kena pegi beli food for him to eat. Padahal his at home doing nothing, prolly shake legs. Aish............

Abang and his poyoness

Oh right, I'm not gonna miss this part. Before I went out to watch movie at Gardes last night, Daddy can tell me to come home early cause his alone at home, lonely, want somebody to teman him. So much of solitude and peace right? I never knew Daddy can be SOOO clinggy and I think Mummy is wayyyyyyy dependent than her husband.

Mummy, ada arabic features tak?

Anyways, recently I had a conversation with me hommies about the rich and the poor. More on like the rich with their egos while the poor with their shallowness. It all started when I was at 7-11, queueing to pay for my stuffla. At first ada this minah cut me but thats ok since I'm being me a gentlemanla kan :) naah, don't worry about it. I can let it slide this time. And then again ada this mamat tried to cut me, mmg jangan harap ar bro. Then, this question popped up in my mind "Does wealth has anything to do with courtesy or manners?" I mean, even orang dulu pun tahu nak beradab dan bersopan. What do you need to be a well-mannered person? the environment? knowledge? Well I think this stuff must come within yourself you know. How you see yourself as a person and how you were raised. I think. I don't know.

This picture? saje je, I like it LOL